turn back time

i really wish i could.

i hate being old and having to have so much responsibility.
i hate all the complex feelings i feel which i would never feel when i was younger.
i hate not being able to act like a kid without being called childish.

i miss primary school where everything was simple.
i miss secondary school when i could just hang out with the girls without a care in the world.
i miss the times when my parents could just pick up the pieces for me.
i miss the me i used to be.

i wish i didn't have to grow up to realise the world is full of materialistic and superficial people.
i wish i am not one of them.

i blinked.

and suddenly i'm 22 already. i feel so old!! updates on my birthday as soon as i get the pix. those who were there should know it wasn't a pretty sight. hehe.

in view of the events that happened, i guess the time has finally come for me to grow up? as much as i wanna be young forever, i've come to realise my decisions not only affect me but others around me too. sad. time for me to forget things that should've long been forgotten too..

ANYWAY. i just cried coz lynette has cancer!! [DH] is so sad!! i started on season 4 already.. yup, that's what i've been busy with.. besides work and play and work of coz.

be back soon.