picture time~

Guess what? I'm not at work. I overslept!! I was like supposed to start work at 7am and I work up at 11.30am. =X All thanks to someone who forced me to talk to him last night lah! Hmph. So I was like sorting out my photos in my Yahoo! photos account (I'll add a link at the side when i figure out how) and saw so many photos that I didn't wanna see. With each photo I saw I just felt worse. Dunno how to explain how I feel without sounding pathetically self-pitying, but can I just say that I HATE MEMORIES??! Wanna delete but just can't bring myself to..

Ok, finally got the time to update.. But i forgot most of what I did already. Lolz. So have to let the pictures do the talking.

Loof 150706

This was after Michelle's surprise birthday party thrown by Kenneth.. Her birthday is like in Sep lor.. And the party was on July 15th. Haha.. But it was so sweet and touching especially when he started singing for her!! Almost cried. And then she sang this song which she composed specially for us.. And I really cried. Lolz. Emo emo. I was like telling everyone if I had a bf and he does something like that for me I'd marry him.

Then Jas and I went to Loof with Mich and Kenneth.. Dunno why I look so red when I only drank like one glass of something with a cute sounding name which I forgot. Their cocktails are nice!! With cute names! Lolz. It's a nice place.. Atmosphere rocks.. Top of the building open air concept.. Pretty much like Balcony but nicer. Saw 2 of my ex-colleagues from embargo there, which is not surprising 'coz the boss used to be from embargo.

After that we went to eat then Jas and I went to Momo.. Boring. Dunno how come only can find this picture.. Mich, never send us the one we took at your party!!

In the Loof toilet =X

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As you can see, basically all we did was take photos and eat eat eat!! And the other half of the night we played mahjong.. =x

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Did more or less the same things as above just that location was different..

Our midnight 'snack'

The first time all 3 of us sleep together!! ;P

In the 'morning'

Outside the chalet

In the room (not the one we slept in)

So sweeeet..

Jas blew the bubble.. I'm just using it as prop..

This looks like a couple pic.. Lolz..

Someone is missing!

Someone's missing here too..

And the crazy photo-taking starts.. Now..

Number 1 to 7 in 7 act cute ways

We are such cam whores

After the 1000th flash we went mad

Still not tired..

mj time!!! (this was the third time we played at the chalet)

Play mj also can take so many pix! We power!

Stress..

Finally! End of my update.. Actually got alot more things wanted to blog about but forgot already.. Hee. Of 'coz in between all this I've been hanging out with my babes, chilling at our place (Paragon Coffee Bean), clubbing, meeting people, watching movies and work work work..

Have to rush for dinner with Mel now.. Yes, I took like 3 hours plus just to blog this.. Plus also doing all my online stuff lahz..

;P

family. i love mine.

Ok, this is gonna be a short one 'coz I have to sleep soon. Went to watch Click just now and it's a really good show.. Sorta like a comedy with family values. Ya, I know.. Who would have thought that kinda show also can teach me something right? Somemore it came right at a time when I was really thinking like there's really gotta be more to this life then what I'm doing.

I sometimes feel that I really changed alot. Not really my character but more of the things I've been doing. I have to stop drinking!! Really talk alot of rubbish when i drink.. Or is it the truth? Hmmm. Anyway, I'm quite sick of meeting people. Not that I won't do it anymore.. But just realised I should spend more time with my family while they're still here. Funnily enough, you always seem to neglect whats most important to you and only treasure it when its gone. So I'm gonna try to make sure that I don't neglect them lor.

Haiz.. Anyway I also can't say much about the show or Jace will kill me 'coz I know she hates spoilers. Lolz. But it's really a good show. Go watch go watch!! I know not so easy to change just like that. So.. Must talk to God more too.. Hopefully I'll have time..

rush.

i'm so high i can touch the sky. lolz.

i still hear your voice when you slp next to me.
i still feel your touch in my dreams.
forgive me my weakness but i don't know why..
without you it's hard to survive.

i've met so many people, but all i can think of is you.

i miss you.

i hate you.

i need you.

i'm lost.

my frenz tell me to stop. i know it's stupid to keep thinking of the past. but i just can't help it.

i drink, alot.
i cry, alone.
at night, i dream.
i wake up in tears.
i really don't know wat to do.
i hate you.

mirror mirror on the wall, tell me what i'm searching for.

i just can't bring myself to love again.

what can stun me in the middle of the night?

Read this CAREFULLY.

M2F Lesbian Transgirl.

Any idea what that means?? I didn't too.. Until I read this . Add in the words gothic-punk and I'd think anybody would be confused. Basically, for those of you too lazy to read the blog, it's a GUY who thinks he's a lesbian trapped in a guy's body. LOLZ. What the fuck is wrong with this world? I was like reading the whole blog entry with my mouth open lor.. Like, stun stun stunned!! This kinda things also have man..

I mean.. I'm from a girls school. I think i'm pretty open to these kinda things. Butches, I can accept. Gays, I can accept. Ah kuas, I like! Lolz.. Think they're pretty! Oh yah.. Haven't told you all about the time my friend Jason brought me to Geylang to see the red light district up close and then to Changi V to see ah kuas. Haha.. It was fun lor!! Anyway, digressing. But.. A guy who likes girls.. But wants to dress up as a girl?? Sounds pretty fucked up to me man.

The whole time I was reading the blog I was trying to grasp what 'she' was trying to say.. Coz it sounds damn complicated lah! After I read this..

I often wish so badly that I was just a male homosexual, or just a heterosexual
male, or even a heterosexual transgirl (meaning M2F who likes men).

I was totally lost already lor!! How to follow??? It's weird. It's complicated. It makes me uncomfortable. =x Like what next?? Hmm. Actually I can't think of anything more complicated than this. But I'm sure next time there will be lor! The world is getting weirder man. Then just imagine if this guy who thinks he's lesbian falls in love with a girl who thinks she's gay.. Hmm. Now wouldn't that be a perfect match?? Oh.. But that can't happen coz the guy likes girls who likes girls, and the girl would like guys.. Who likes guys. Lolz.. It's seriously screwed up.

I'm still in a state of shock now. Wanted to blog about other things but thought I'd shock you all too.

(post)world cup fever part 2

I forgot to post all the pictures I took while watching the World Cup.. Lolz.. Quite bo liao but I have to stay awake so here they are..

We watched at East Coast Mac..

Boon Keng Mac..

And Ang Mo Kio Mac..

But the best of all was at..

Toa Payoh HDB Hub!!

Look at the turn out!!

Many many people! Plus they gave out free World Cup DVDs which cost like $9.90!! Haha. Seriously, I spent so much time watching the World Cup at Mac I'm so sick of Mac food already! I think I put on weight thanks to that!! *sobz*

We

went



mad


after


ITALY

won!!!

Lolz.. Finally can post!Woohoo.. I typed out this entry about one week ago.. Haha.. Euro, don't say I never blog ah.. =P

i hate blogger

i've been trying to post for a long time already but got problem with the uploading so don't say i never blog!!=( ok fine i admit everytime i wanna blog i end up surfing for like hours and then by the time i wanna blog i'm too tired. but if the photos could be posted the entry would have been up!!some more it's an outdated entry!! argh. so irritating.. whatever.. i'm too tired to care. so.. i know i told u all i wanted to blog but hee.. not my fault! and i think by now most of you should realise that sometimes i type in small alphabets and sometimes i type with the proper capital letters and everything? if you didn't realise, when i use small everything is usually when i'm being emotional, while the proper typing is for when i feel like i have an entry thats good enough to be on print.. lolz.. ok.. need. sleep.

help

it's happening again!! i can't sleep. went to mc cafe to chill with cammie just now.. triggered alot of memories and stuff. argh. i've been trying to sleep since 230am.. now i think it's pointless. have to 'wake up' for work in 90mins time. fuck. tomorrow no need to go out already..

i realised.. i was unreasonable.. at times. i was impulsive. i wasn't understanding enough. i'm sorry to you if you ever see this. but i'm still not sorry for breaking all contact with you. just so you know.. and maybe feel happy about it.. i hurt. very deeply.. i thought it was gone but apparently not. i feel lost at times still. especially at night.

god. i hate night. i dunno why during the day i can be so bloody tired and at night i. just. can't. fucking. sleep. hah. there were thousands of things running through my head while i was trying to sleep and now.. my mind is totally blank. great..

ok.. updates SOON people. i'm so sorry for not giving proper entries. i'll just shut up and stop whining k.. i think i'm becoming like one of those irritating people who just go on and on every entry about how sad they are and how fucked up their life is blah blah blah. i'm SORRY. will try to stop. haha. think i'm mad lah please don't ban my blog! =X

ps. i don't think i have a fucked up life. i still love my life. =)

(post)world cup fever

Can't eat, can't sleep, wake up at 3am every night and have nightmares about the Zidane head-butting incident? Lolz. This entry is for those who just can't get enough of the World Cup 2006 which ended last Mon.. I wanted to blog so many things out but I realised pictures say it so much better. Plus I kinda forgot what were the many things 'coz I've been delaying this entry. =x

This is the best part of the Portugal vs Holland game which I blogged about earlier. Check out Deco's face.. So blur, so cute!! And the coach damn pissed.. Very super funny!


And then there's the one involving my droolsome Ronaldo and the cutely childish and hot-tempered Rooney..

Did you catch the wink??? That meanie! Even though I love him but still.. To bully his own team mate.. Tsk tsk..

Finally, the head-butting incident that made the finals end in a very big way..

Poor Zidane.. He seems like such a nice guy.. Apparently lip readers had been hired to find out what Materazzi said to rile him and after going through thousands of intepretations, I have concluded that this is what that asshole said.. " Hold on, wait, that one's not for a nigger like you. We all know you are the son of a terrorist whore. So just fuck off. " Wouldn't you have head butted him? Maybe a kick in the balls would've been better!

Super funny clip.. Especially near the end..

Who says soccer is not fun?? You've got lots of drama, fights, speculations, hunks.. All that's missing is some love.. Now if only I could photoshop Ronaldo and Deco in some kinda passionate embrace.. LOLZ. I know I'm sick. But.. What's this?

Maybe soon I might just get my wish..

Anyway, back to soccer.. Its a conspiracy to get people to spend money! I lost a total of $320 on bets and I know people who actually lost more! And don't say bets.. People spend money on the channel, the tidbits you munch on while watching it(another conspiracy to get you fat), the sms-es you excitedly send everytime there's a goal, the calls you make to bet illegally.. And many other things which I can't recall now already.. That's the irritating thing about postponing an entry. I forget everything. Which is what I have to do again. Wanted to blog about where I've just been to but will do that.. soon.

Most videos and pictures courtesy of xialanxue.blogspot.com . =)

super happy~~

i juz had a nice longgg bath n i'm.. sober!!lolz..almost i tink. i'm so happy i finally went to rush after ages!!!!!!!!!!!!!!happy happy happy!!even though i saw many many bungs there.. dunno why suddenly they like techno?lolz..even though many many memories came back.. i miss u.. i miss u so much.. but u wouldn't know it. i wonder if i'd ever see u again. talk to u again. hold u again. probably not..

but i'm still happy!!!!coz everyone was there!!!everyone important.. especially my sweetheart who i haven't seen for so blloody long! dancing together with her really made me remember the times. brought me a couple of yrs back. when i still had u. but still.. i'm happy! even my darling elaine n jen were there!! fun fun!! omg. i forgot how fun it is to dance to techno. no more phuture! lolz. rnb is nothing compared to techno! so i was high. but happy high. not sad. no more sadness for me!

ok.. special thanx to elaine n jen for tking care of me n of coz kenny for sending me home.. my sweetheart nv tk care of me! but thats coz she was high too. haha.. relli like last time lehz. omg.. i like!!!! i love love love rush!!

lolz. someone challenged me not to reply his sms or ans his calls for one week. lolz.. darling.. u dun noe wat ur missing.. >_< n juz in case ur reading this.. i regret dat sms! omg. so paiseh.. cant believe wat i sms-ed u.. shy. hah. talk to u in one wks time k? lolz. i tink i'm gg mad..

kk.. all the updates plus entries i promised coming soonnnnn.. plus a hell load of pix!! god.. i've got a super big headache.. lolz.

why am i blogging?

I feel like crying. I can't believe I turned down Pirates of the Carribean and Phuture to go sleep and now I'm sitting in front of my comp obviously not sleeping. This is fucked up. Waiting for a one hour bluetooth installation so that I can try and upload pictures. Argh. Might as well update you all while I'm at it.

As you can probably tell from my last entry, I went to Phuture on Wed. Drank 2 Flaming Lambos at one go and then went to vomit awhile later. Haha.. I know I know, I'm lousy.. I heard enough of that already. It was so chaotic that day lor!! Kept changing venues.. First MOS, then Dbl O, then finally Phuture.. Sms-ed till low batt. Finally the people who went were Elaine, Jeff, Mich and her bf and sis, Sherlyn and Jasmine. Happening? Lolz. Met our usual share of assholes. Phuture is getting boring.. I want Rush!!

Hmm, think there's something wrong with Blogger. Trying to upload photos but can't? So no pics for you today!Anyway before Phuture I met Hazel for her advanced birthday treat at Heeren NYDC.. That girl is such a darling!! She went HK and bought stuff for me!! Love her. ;P

That night when I went home I couldn't sleep lor.. There's something freakishly wrong with my sleeping time. So I didn't sleep and decided to go rebond my hair on impulse. Haha.. Ok, not impulse as in I didn't plan to rebond it but just that I didn't expect I would have done it on that day. Keke.. Then went to watch movie with my PTS. He lucky right.. Got the honour to be the first one to see my rebonded hair! Lolz. Hmm, I think I should explain the whole PTS thing. It's only part time 'coz.. I don't want anymore commitment and he already has other commitment.. If you get what I mean. Am I a bitch? Probably. Am I gonna get hurt? Maybe. But I don't care. Because I rather be upset over a guy, any guy, than a girl. I just want all the pain of the past washed away and I'll do anything (almost) to achieve that. Just for the record, it's working. =)

Today went for my brand training! Seems that purple is the colour of the year. All the fragrances seem to be purple.. Hypnose, Ralph Hot, Pure purple.. BUT, turquoise is hot too! Ralph Lauren came out with this new fragrance called Pure Turquoise (I know, like what's with all the PURE?) and some magazine was quoted as saying turquoise is the new BLACK. Hmm.. Whatever. Pink rules! Lancome will be coming out with a new fragrance called Miracle Forever and I bet it will be pink!

Met up with the girls after training, went shopping and then to our usual place, Paragon Coffee Bean. Jas and Cammie were like so tempting me to go Phuture!! Somemore it's Cammie's big debut. Hah. Wonder how they are. Dammit I should've just gone lahz.. My bloody installation install up till now still haven't finish!! KNS.

phuture.

sweaty bodies, drunk people, fights, smoke, loud music, non-stop dancing and lots of supper.

what more can a person ask for?

i'm becoming one of THEM.

HELP!

next one MUST be at rush!!!

;)

recover from heartbreak like a man

This was one of the articles featured in this month's CLEO. It's mostly common sense lah actually, most girls probably do the same thing.

1. Relish your new freedom.
Do the things that you couldn't do when you were with the other half. Hmm. Actually this is just leading to the 4th point.

2. Have a quick fix.
Omg! CLEO encourages people to have ONS!! Naughty.. But it probably works. Not that I have tried it of 'coz. =X

3. Double your poison.
Their poison means a drink but I guess you can always substitute it with panadols, sleeping pills, cough mixture, etc.. I'm kidding.. Just stick to drinks k? I've doubled, tripled and quadrupled it but this one DOES NOT work at all. So it's a no no to getting drunk 'coz you'll end up doing stupid things you regret the next day. Of 'coz, getting just a little tipsy is a different story..

4. Play up the single status.
Done. And as far as I know, nearly everybody does too.. But nobody does it better than a certain someone I know.. (I think most of you know who it is ;P)

5. Bend and stretch.
Exercise. It's hard. I'm lazy. Jace!! Pull me to the gym leh! =x (For those of you who don't know, exercising produces endorphins which will make you happy. Didn't you watch Legally Blond??! And of 'coz when you lose weight you'll be happier!)

6. Bin the reminders.
This is the first thing I usually do. Get rid of photos, belongings, anything belonging to the other person. But it's hard when everything reminds you of the other person doesn't it? And I cannot bear to dump the sketchbook which we took so long to do and Stitch.. But since I managed to throw away the pig Alex gave me, hmm, maybe sooner or later.

7. Take the low road.
This basically means, bitch about the other party. This is something everybody does but it doesn't always work. Sometimes you just end up feeling worse.. And the goal that you want is indifference, not hate, remember?

I wrote this actually wanting to proclaim there's a better way than that to get over a break up but seriously? I think there is no fixed way to get over it. I guess everyone has their own way. I thought I had mine. Oh ya! It was GO OUT EVERYDAY AND NIGHT TILL YOU'RE DAMN TIRED THEN GO SLEEP STRAIGHTAWAY. And it was working damn well till nobody wanted to go out today and I surfed aimlessly for hours and saw my bloody yahoo photos. What the hell man.

On my way to Jas' cousins house at Holland V last week I got lost and passed by her mum's house twice. It's just.. Alot of memories. I miss her mum and sis. It's sad that I won't be able to see them anymore. It's sad that I had to make the decision not to be friends. It's the only way I know..

So all of you who didn't wanna meet me tonight better feel guilty!! Lolz.. It's amazing how long I can use the computer without even doing what I wanted to do in the first place. Which was my auctions and blogging about the world cup. And then can blog all this.. Am I pro? >_<

So much for me not wanting to blog about my personal life..

italy rocks!!!

italy won the world cup!!!!!!!!!!!

will post more when i'm less tired.

meanwhile, here's something to keep you people entertained..

(conversation between my mum and bro)

mum: italy and france draw then how??? nobody win the world cup?

bro: ya nobody win then they just throw the cup away.

okok, not funny i know. fine. i said i'm tired right. somemore tired still had to go down and meet SOMEBODY lor. bleahz.

p.s. i very power right can find techno world cup song???(even though its dedicated to england) lolz. =x

day of the dares

Wanted to blog about this the moment I got home that day but by the time my photos finished uploading I was SHAGGED! Went to meet the girls on Mon evening 'coz Mich Sng came back from Aussie!! It was like so secondary school. Sat at McCafe, crapped, played bridge.. Fun fun! Then.. I dunno why this always happens when Mich is around but we always end up playing stupid but fun games and doing stupid but entertaining(for the people around us) dares.

Dare No. 1
Jasmine and Shiwan were the first suay ones. We did it two by two so that the people who kena won't so paiseh lahz. So.. They had to french. Lolz.. Boring lor!! I frenched Shiwan like dunno how many times already!! =x We recorded it on video but mine is freaking dark so I won't bother to put it up. I jealous, Jas frenched my dear! Lolz.

Dare No. 2
Next to kena was Angele and me. Jace SMARTLY came up with the sick idea of making us fondle each other's boobs!! Haha.. But in secondary school all of us used to smack each other's boobs anyway so it wasn't that bad. It was caught on video too but I shall spare all of you the agony of seeing that. Or should I say I won't give you all the pleasure? Hee.

Dare No. 3
Shiwan again. This time round with Kenneth, Mich's boyfriend. Sounds nice right??? Michelle and Kenneth. Hehe. They had to bang the dustbin loudly while singing.. I think the people around us thought we were all mad and just decided to ignore us by then.

Dare No. 4
Jasmine and Angele. This wasn't really a dare for them but more like for Jace. Haha.. 'Coz she was the smart person who came up with most of the dares, they decided to get even by each biting one side of her ear!! And even though that might seem like something trivial, trust me, it was probably hell for her. I still remember when we were in Sec 2 and not very close, all I did was touch her hair and she cried. Traumatising experience sia! For me. Hah.. Here are the pics..

See what I mean?? Check out her pained expression man. I mean, Jas also bit as if her life depended on it lahz and Jace said she teared 'coz it was pain, but I think she was probably just upset that her ear got dirtied.. Poor girl.. But it was fun lahz.. All of us together again, really like secondary school.. We miss LJS! And the bubble tea shop that we always used to play bridge at. *sigh* Those were really super fun times.

I look stoned. Look at the smoke surrounding us.

Went to watch soccer at Jeff's house on Tuesday and I sadly lost. Those damn Italians don't wanna score earlier! After that I went to my PTS house! Hee. He is so idiotically cute. And it's all his fault that I can't sleep now 'coz I screwed my sleeping time that day! Hmph. But it's ok lahz since he so sweetly accompanied me during my break time. =)

Wed went to Phuture with Mich, her bf, Jas and all her relatives.. Lolz.. Too many to mention. Her super cute bro deserves a mention though.. Haha.. Had so much fun that I stayed there to watch the Portugal match and I lost again! Argh. (Elaine!! Sorry I didn't go meet you guys.. I was a little high..) And fact established.. I like guys! Lolz.. I'm in deep shit.

Then just now went McCafe chill with Cammie and Mich. Fun fun.. Girls talk.. Until my PTS came.. Hehe.. Then we just had fun making him shuffle. =x And Mich taught us a new game called 'Asshole Daidee'. Anyone interested in learning? Don't worry it doesn't involve the ass in any way.. Keke.. Really have to go try to sleep now.. Will blog about the Batam trip soon.

smile. coz i updated.

I was just surfing through some of my friends blogs and none of them updated!! Now I know how you all feel when you stop by and there's no updates. Except that you all probably just feel ten times worse. =) So being the nice person that I am I have decided to UPDATE even though I'm just 2 and a half hours away from boarding a cab which will take me to the airport. For work.

For the past week I have really lived up to my reputation as a movie freak. Lolz.. Watched 6(?) movies.. There's nothing left for me to watch except Superman Returns so those of you dying to watch a show with me take note k? Hee.. I found the new love of my life while watching The King and the Clown..

I know he looks girlish (Actually he looks like Vanness, but then Vanness also.. Nevermind). I dunno why I seem to have a thing for girly guys. And guyish girls? Lolz.. I went to my ex-colleagues son's birthday chalet just now and saw this small bung there.. Haha.. I know.. The way I say it is as if she's an insect right? Why are there so many of them around nowadays?!! I wish I could just exterminate them! Not that I have anything against them except they make me think. I mean.. I was fine and everything till she came up to her girlfriend, who was talking to me, and kissed her. I don't know how to describe what I felt but it certainly wasn't happiness.

When I broke up with Alex, I didn't think of him everytime I saw a guy.. 'Coz there are so many of them. But butches.. There are few and yet many enough to affect me once in awhile. Irritating. Think you all probably don't understand what the fuck I'm talking about. And then I started wondering if I actually liked bungs more than guys. Hmm. It's just 2 different kinds of feelings. But cannot be la.. I still like guys. I saw my future husband in church just now. Hah. So don't start gettting worried.. Ok, enough rubbish. Being in a girls school really screws with your head sometimes.. Nevermind the fact that I've been out of there for 5 years.. Thats not the point.

The other show I MUST mention is Just My Luck. It's actually a chick flick so I watched it with the right people! Actually, it would be a nice show to watch with your bf/gf also 'coz after the show I just felt like kissing somebody. Lolz. Someone with extremely good luck perhaps? So.. Basically what I'm trying to say is that watch it with anyone and it will still be nice. Talking about luck..

I broke my very nice limited edition Ettusais mirror!!! *sobz* 7 years of bad luck?? I don't really believe in superstitions just super sad 'coz its limited edition and that means I can never get it again!!! Maybe I should go and beg the salesgirl to find one more for me but I think she gave me the last piece.. =(

On a happier note, I saw Mel Mel just now!! I missed that girl. Not long after I came home from the chalet Zi Chao called and told me Melissa was with him so I went to Simpang Bedok to eat supper with them and their two other friends.. We did so much catching up. Talked about KC again.. Really miss those days.. Really miss that school (even though it screwed me up. kinda.) I don't wanna be old and wrinkly! I don't wanna be 21!! *wails*

2 yellow cards = 1 red card, 4 red cards = super spacious field

hmm.. actually have been watching soccer these few weeks.. wanted to wait until the whole thing was over to blog over it but.. i have watched THE most interesting match in my whole life. portugal vs holland. super entertaining!!

ok.. first half.. nothing interesting except my poor ronaldo kena injured and he kinda cried 'coz he couldn't play.. broke my heart to see him cry.. haha.. then the second half was like.. woah.. so many yellow cards were given that i lost count.. and then yellow turned to red.. even the goalkeeper wasn't spared!! and then there were a couple of times the players from both sides started getting aggresive, shoving each other and probably spewing vulgarites. TWO referees could barely control them. it was super funny lor. everyone in mac was like laughing and saying the referee should be the one who kena red card. he REALLY gave alot of yellow cards out lor.. its like he give one, i start typing a sms. before i can finish he give out two more!!! i think the portugal coach must've been thinking like," WTF? might as well just give everybody red card and end the game! why not give me one too?!!" damn funny lah their faces.

and that deco guy. fucking cute in a blur way. his face was like huh? how come i bo tai bo ji also kena red card? super cute!! especially towards the end of the game when he was sitting with another guy from holland then started making hand gestures like he didn't even know what was going on.. heard that it's his team mate from barcelona.. probably complaining to each other about the referee.. but i have to say that the portuguese people were really very rough lah. anyhow push here, kick there.. i think they'd be damn good in bed.. lolz.. =P~~

yup. just wanted to share my excitement over the whole game. hee. even though i lost money i was satisfied watching that game!! and i actually read the soccer section in news paper today! going mad already.. lolz.. shall write more about this soccer madness after world cup 2006 ends..

on a totally different note.. i feel really empty. i can't wait for friday!!! clubbing then shopping on sat!! yay.

why do guys always think with their *beep* ?

Sorry for the lag in blogging. You all really demanding lehz.. But nevermind, I like! Haha.. Been busy getting wasted and sleeping late so no time to blog lahz, but in the midst of getting wasted I actually blogged halfway and I finally finished it up now! So.. Here it is..

Enough is enough already!! Why is it that MOST of the guys i meet all think with their dicks?? Argh.. I mean, I know I said I don't wanna have any more serious relationships for a long, long time but it would be nice if there were actually more decent guys out there lor!!

I went to Phuture last Fri with Jas, Shiwan and Jas' brother and cousins.. And of 'coz Phuture being Phuture, had its normal share of guys who would just stand behind us and dance.. Which I normally think is quite weird, especially if we act like they're not there but they still dance around us which actually just makes them look like idiots. Poor Shiwan kena 'harassed' twice. Then, this cute guy caught my eye and he actually started doing the dance behind me thing.. Lolz.. And Jasmine, who always can't wait to push her single friends off to dance with some guy, asked me to turn around and dance with him and I said I didn't want to 'coz anyway I usually don't. But then.. the DJ played Stick Wit U and I just felt so melancholic and Jasmine started dancing with Shiwan so I just turned around and danced with him.. And I have never done that before. Anyway, that's not the point.. We danced abit then went to get a drink and then he asked me to go over to his house!! All I could think was, "WTF??!" and when I said no he said he could book the hotel next to Zouk!!!!! Argh. Of 'coz I said no lahz. 'Coz I had work the next day. Haha. Joking lahz.. WHAT KINDA PERSON DO YOU THINK I AM??

It's damn sad lor.. Why are the guys nowadays all like that?? I was just thinking about it the other day and I realised its not totally their fault. Ok, maybe like 90% is their fault but what about the other 10%? It's the girls who actually just give in to them and sleep with them and have one night stands and all.. In other words, sluts. It's the whole economics theory thingy. If there's no demand there won't be supply and I'm very sure that if there's no supply demand will eventually stop. Or maybe people would just go Geylang more lahz but some guys just won't go for paid sex. Ok, maybe my whole 'economics' theory is abit off since it has been quite long since I last went to school but something like that lahz..

So, I thought about it somemore and just couldn't figure out why girls would actually sleep around since girls are supposed to be the more emotional and think-with-their-hearts gender right? (Some guys might not agree with this here but I said most not all) Then a few days back it kinda hit me that maybe.. Just maybe... They do it 'coz they need love and attention. And the people who actually go to that extreme maybe just don't know any other way to get love? Anyway this only applies to the girls 'coz only girls are this vulnerable and that's why they always get cheated by guys! And of 'coz there are the girls who really are just sluts.

Anyway, everytime I complain to one or another of my guy friends about the state of guys nowadays, all they can say is I'm not looking in the right places and that guys who club are obviously bad. But I beg to differ. The guys I go clubbing with are one of the nicest bunch, if not the nicest, guys that I actually know lor. But then again, I didn't really know them through clubbing. Then again, some of my friends are in long-term relationships with guys they know from clubs. So it's definitely not about the place. It's just guys nowadays. *sigh*

But I'm saying most of the guys lahz. Not all. I have some really nice guy friends and you know who you all are ya? So don't start getting insulted k? =X

us at zouk

go figure

two hearts.
many pieces.

one person sad.
many people happy.

one lonely person.
has lots of friends.

one irritated person.
two people liked.

two new people.
one person distracted.

one night.
many questions.

too much pride.
no answers.

one friend.
or a stranger?

too many memories.
one teardrop.

clubbing mania

I've been clubbing so much this week it's as if I've morphed into the person that I was around three years ago!! Last time I used to have so much energy.. Could go clubbing like 3, 4 times a week. And this week..

070606 (Wed)

After work, went back, changed and went down to Rush with Sherlyn. Reached around 2am? Drink drink drink, dance dance dance, smoke smoke smoke.. Then my friend Allan jio us go Momo. Sherlyn damn excited lor 'coz she was like sick of hearing my techno.. Lolz.. Over at Momo the music was nice, almost win Phuture 'coz got more space to dance too.. But I think I still kinda prefer the Phuture crowd no matter how perverted some people there are. Or maybe it's 'coz of the perverted people? Hahaha.. Anyway, then went to eat supper which actually I kept insisting I didn't wanna eat but somehow I ended up finishing a whole plate of nasi lemak!! I know.. I'm a pig.. ^o^

090606 (Fri)

Had so many places to go that almost couldn't decide to go where!! In the end decided to go MoS 'coz I've never been there before!! Yes yes, call me suaku.. Went down with Sherlyn and met up with Irene and her friend, Dexter and Kelvin the idiotic pang seh kia there.. =X Then saw lotsa my ex-colleagues from Onyx and Lash there! But it wasn't that great lor.. I didn't have high expectations of that place anyway. The r&b side kinda small and super squeezy!! If Phuture you feel like in a can of sardines there you'll feel like in a can of mashed tuna!! You get my point lah ah.. After that went Geylang to eat supper with Sherlyn and another colleague of ours who works there part time. See lah, everyday eat supper/breakfast and then sleep. Like that how to lose weight!!! Plus all the alcohol also contains ALOT of calories!!

100606 (Sat)

My off day! Woke up around 5pm.. Supposed to be the 'big day' where I go for confession but somehow didn't make it 'coz I spent over 1 hour picking out clothes to wear for Rush! And the end result also damn lock kok so I dunno what the hell I was thinking. Maybe just my subconsciousness stopping me from going.. Hmm.. Anyway, met Elaine, Jeff, Alvin, His friend and Kenny early to catch the England match but end up DJ Stanley gave wrong info and they were not screening it at Rush. So went over to Robertson Walk where we STOOD for the first half of the match then at half-time went over to a chill out place near Rush for the rest of the game. Think it's a new place.. Called DayBedBar.. Quite nice actually.. For chilling out lahz not for clubbing. I probably won't ever go there again though.. 'Coz if wanna chill can chill at some cafe wat!! Go so expensive place chill for what! Then opened bottle at Rush. Drank alot. Too much. Smoked alot. See the pattern? Think I really have to cut down on clubbing again!!

Actually it just reminds me of how I used to be like. It was fun lor! So much energy and all.. Oh ya, wait a minute, that's 'coz I was YOUNG then.. God, I'm so freaking old.. *sobz sobz*.. so scary lor!! Hmm.. I realised that I've changed quite alot since last time.. And I don't mean just my looks although it obviously did change abit thank God. Ya hor, found my old bus pass.. Let you all see..

Scary right? =x

Obviously this was when I was wayyy younger then when I first started clubbing but I really think I changed alot since then. Especially my character. I'm doing things that I always thought I wouldn't/couldn't/shouldn't do. Like for example.. When I was really young I told my mum I'd never wear tubes and now they're all over my cupboard! Actually I only remembered 'coz my mum told me about it. Think she was kinda disappointed at that time but by now she's like used to it liaoz! I guess the number one thing I never expected myself to do was get a tattoo done, 'coz I was like kinda scared when old I regret but what the hell since we only live once right?

I actually hate change. I guess it's because it's something that I sometimes can't control and I hate not having control of things!! Fine, so I'm kinda a control freak.. Haiz.. So now I'm fucking irritated that I can't even control my own life!! Ok I guess I'm like out of point already lahz just ignore me.. Think I need to get some sleep. Just now went Parkway with Cammie when I was halfway through this post and went shopping! I am so terrible. Really into retail therapy..

the beat of my heart

Yes.. I've finally decided to blog again!! Haha.. No lahz, been really busy these past few days. Go out till morning then sleep and work and go out again and again in a continuous cycle.. And I have no idea why but I just can't sleep!! I'm usually not awake in 10.10am in the morning lor. Maybe it's the date (060606) that's got my heart beating abit too fast..

Lolz.. Went to watch The Omen with my friend Jeff just now. Kinda kena forced to watch lor.. Hehe.. Ever watched a movie about the devil being borne into this world? Yup.. It's just like the rest.. No originality whatsoever!! Can totally predict what would happen.. Only edge this show has got over the rest is its release date!! That totally got me freaked out so when I came back I was like so anxiously waiting for 6.06am.. Really thought the world was gonna end today!!! But luckily another of my friends jio me go eat supper!! Then he brought me to sooo many nice places I never ever went to before.. I so appreciate Singapore now..

And I totally love being single!! It's like you can go anywhere, anytime and with anyone.. No restrictions.. And best of all, in turn, you don't have to worry about anyone or feel jealousy or possessiveness, which I totally hate feeling! Only downside is when I'm trying to sleep and memories haunt me. But it doesn't matter 'coz I'm usually so tired I sleep within 5 mins.. Which is why I feel damn puzzled that I can't sleep now!!!

I tried to sleep from 7am.. Kept thinking of stuff that I wanted to blog about (stupid right?) all the way till 8am then managed to sleep till like 930am!!! Argh. By the time it hit 10am I decided to stop trying and come blog instead.. And my neck is totally aching!!! My pillow sucks. Maybe now that I've blogged my mind can just STOP being so over-active and let me rest!!! Ok, gonna go try sleep again..

P.S. I actually started blogging on the Batam trip already but it will be a long long post and I got lazy after starting abit so i decided to save that and blog about other stuff first, if not by the time i post that maybe the end of the world really come liaoz! Oh shit.. Now I still have to worry about 6.06pm!! =X

..as long as my heart beats i have hope..

it's 27th AGAIN!

wow.. more than a month has passed and i still feel like crap. ok.. so many things have happened i dunno where to start.. so i won't. all i can say is.. why should i bother about someone who doesn't bother about me anymore? i think my heart has felt so much pain that it is almost numb already lor. i can't believe i let $27(ironically) worth of good food go to waste 'coz of my fucking emotions!!

anyway.. went night cycling with ben and gary and around 100 other people from west coast to east coast just now!! such an accomplishment.. haha.. it was their church thingy lahz.. it was fun.. helped me take my mind off stuff.. we stopped alot along the way actually and i have to say that esplanade is super romantic at night!!! and so is the stadium waterfront near cosy bay.. *sighz* everytime i think of a happy memory all the sms-es and hurtful stuff just comes along with it. whatever.

oh ya.. with all the blinking front and back lights of all the bicycles it looked like a disco on wheels.. lolz.. i wanna go RUSH~! then there was this girl who was my junior from kc totally like following in my footsteps lor.. same CCA, same pri and sec sch.. and even same course in same poly now!! it's so freaky but cool!!
hopefully she won't follow the drop out part.. haha..

actually had alot more things to write but i'm tired in every sense.. i just hope i can let go of my hatred.. 'coz indifference, not hate, is the opposite of love. i guess it's time for me to get new memories to replace the old ones? actually.. thinking about it.. i don't wanna forget.. 'coz we had so much happiness it would be a waste to forget it. but i definitely wanna replace it though. so this is my last post that will have anything to do with the past. i'm an emotional wreck now.. time to get my beauty sleep already!! if i don't look after myself wait nobody want me.. =X

i want short term memory!!!

Rush wasn't as fun as expected.. Everyone was abit sianz 'coz of all the xiao ah lians and xiao ah bengs.. Plus I was just in a very crappy mood.. In fact, this whole week I've been in a crappy mood.. I'm actually starting to think maybe if I was hit by that glass that day, it would have been a good thing.. Don't get me wrong.. I do not wanna die.. I love life too much for that.. But it would be great if I could just get a concussion or be in a coma and then I could just stay in bed all day and don't even have to think of anything!! Even better if I could just lose my memory!!! That would be so great.. Seriously, memories are very evil things.. You can just be so happy and out enjoying yourself and it just hits you without warning. And it hurts. So ya.. If only there was some kinda hypno-therapist or whatever.. Anything that can make me lose my memory.. Anything!!

Haiz.. Anyway, so we left Rush at about 3.30am then I went with Guowei and his friend, Gary, over to MU again 'coz Guowei's friend was celebrating his birthday there. I just didn't wanna go home lahz. But when we reached there his friends eating so we went over to Cuppage the prata shop to find them. Talked awhile.. Then back to MU, which closed after awhile.. Then we went to Bone again.. Saw Charles again and this time had breakfast with him and his cousin, last time Club 3 DJ and I only realised yesterday that he is also the MU DJ!! Lolz.. Dunno why couldn't recognise him.. Waited for Guowei's friends to come down then talked awhile more.. Left around 7.15am.. Heng ah, missed the 7.30am charge..

Today was totally bad.. didn't do much, basically just being a bitch and whining, whining, whining.. Anyway, here's Angele's lil quiz thingy..

01) What is the phone brand? : Samsung
02) What are the last 3 digits of your mobile number?: 5740
3) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say?: it's a sweet poem that edwin took like 25 mins to think of ;p
4) Who's the first person who comes up under theletter M?: MANO..my workplace security gaurd..haha!
05) Who's the last person you rang?: my dad..-_-"
06) Who was your last missed call from?: william
07) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?: dar's mum..dun ask me why..
08) What does the last message in your inbox say?: fowarded msg from adeline
09)Who comes up under J?: let me count..32 people!!!
10) Go to your Sent Items - what does the 5th message say?:wanna meet up at pw slack awhile later?
11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S?: see see from my workplace
12) Who's your network provider?: starhub
13) How many messages are currently in your inbox?: 82
14) What do you have as your background:my lil cousin and me
15) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R?: rain
16) Who do you have on speed dial 3?: dun use speed dial
17) If you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have?: guess this does not apply to me.
18) Who's the first person who comes up under C?: carmen my colleague
19) How many bars of signal do you currently have?: 6
20) What do you have as your main ringtone?: Just Another Day

See what I mean about memories being bad and all?? Just doing this stupid quiz made me sad already.. Hmph.. And I realised from Angele's blog that TODAY was Big Walk.. *screamz* This is so fucking irritating..

years go by and i'm asking myself why.. is it worth.. this pain.. i don't wanna go insane..

the old and new MU

I deleted my last post 'coz I felt there was too much bitterness and anger in those few lines.. Maybe I brought this whole thing upon myself so I guess it's time for me to stop being so childish and stupid.. Haiz.. Just finished my midnight OT.. So shagged but can't sleep.. Argh!!! I'm so fucking fed up with myself already lahz..

Anyway, Thurs night went to MU after work.. It's like so qiao lor.. I messaged Ivy to ask her to go then after she said cannot Guowei called me and asked me to go.. Lolz.. So I met Elaine, Jeff and Guowei outside MU then we all went in together.. The place changed so much lor!! Now they give out these lucky draw coupons to the ladies and 3 lucky girls get to spin the lucky draw wheel every week.. Like so fun!!

We sat somewhere behind the DJ console.. Smoked alot, drank even more.. And I thought I ran out of tears.. Really have to stop all my nonsense already lahz.. Thanks to you guys for taking care of me, especially my darling Elaine.. Sorry for making you worry.. =X

Then we were at the dance floor for like 3 mins(?) when suddenly the crowd dispersed and we realised there was a fight!! So excited lor.. Lolz.. I kept trying to go nearer to see what was happening until.. I saw a glass flying.. Hurrily pulled Elaine back to our table there.. And the glass hit one beng who was involved in the fight lor!! He was sitting just two tables away from us.. So poor thing.. He very funny lehz.. Obviously in pain but still wanna act tough and still wanted to fight back.. And.. Their management sucks!!!! Wah lau.. People fight hor.. Like as if nothing happened like that wan lehz!! Just kept on playing their music and the bouncers didn't even come till like 10 mins later!! They didn't even attend to the poor injured beng!!!!!! Kaoz.. Like that if people seriously injured can just die there while waiting for the management to do anything lor.. If it was Rush they would have stopped the music at the slightest hint of a fight.. Rush still rules!! And Jeff wasn't too happy with one of the people there too.. 'Coz the guy really got fucked up attitude lor.. So I guess it'll be quite awhile before they wanna go back there again.. But I don't mind it lahz.. It was fun!!

Oh yah.. Guowei saw two of his friends there then after MU closed we all went to the old MU together.. Lolz.. It's now called B-One or Ying Huang(?) in chinese.. I was kinda excited 'coz never went there before plus Guowei told me DJ Charles, who used to be the Rush DJ, was spinning there.. Then halfway there Jeff and Elaine decided to go back 'coz I guess they were kinda tired.. So it was just the 3 of them and me.. One of Guowei's friends damn funny lor.. He was like asking us to rate his dancing then I just said I didn't see and his reply was.. " Wah, you're the first girl in MU who never see me dance lehz!" Hahaha.. BHB!!

When we reached there I went to talk to Charles.. Think he also quite surprised to see me after so freaking long.. We stayed till closing then he offered to ride me home but I paiseh!! =X So stayed with them till their first train then i took a cab home..

Really happy lehz.. I really should go club more often.. Oh yah.. Going Rush tonight!! Hee.. Who wanna go message me ah!! Now I think I can finally sleep liaoz!~~ =P

PS : Try to bear with my terrible blog layout I'll try to change it ASAP!!

funny day

Ok.. This was supposed to be a fun post 'coz everything that happened today was mostly fun but then I came home and did a stupid thing and now I just feel like crap. But since I've already typed out the title I guess I should just continue.. Maybe blogging can help me to stop thinking of anything..

Ok.. I went to this spa thingy with 2 of my colleagues after work just now.. Its at bugis village the 2nd floor there and its called Inizio. Do not ever go there.. This is the treatment I went for..

Haiz.. Sounds nice right? So disappointing lor. First, the 3 of us went for the 'detox steam' which was just a normal steam bath, after which we went into separate rooms for the body scrub which was just a normal scrub which I could do myself and I must add that they did not let us choose for the scrub, mask OR jet bath. After that, I went to wash off and the so called 'rain shower' was actually more or less a normal shower head but slightly bigger. Then proceeded to the hydro jet bath which is actually a mini jacuzzi, and they made me stay in there listening to mostly static 'coz they probably couldn't receive the FM stations from there and by the time I got out my hands were chapped and I was really cold. Then off for the body mask which actually felt pretty much like the scrub but had a tea egg smell which kinda made me hungry.. I know, I'm a pig! =X Then the girl wrapped me up with the thermal blanket which felt really nice and warm since I was cold, and she stood there trying to sell me some slimming package but I guess I wasn't really responsive so she just said she'll be back in 20 mins. I fell asleep 'coz I was so damn freaking tired and when I woke up.. I felt like I was in hell. Wah lau!!! The blanket felt like some fire thing wrapping around me lor.. It's 10 times hotter than my slimming gel so I got kinda scared I would be burnt to death there and then!! Luckily the woman came back and although I voiced my fear she told me to tahan 5 mins and during that long long 5 mins I was basically just squirming and praying that nothing would happen to me!!! Then back to the shower and finally can change and go off.. But nooo, she just had to push her package once again but luckily I was in a hurry to meet someone so didn't have time to listen or I might just have signed up for a package (those who know me would know how easily persuaded I am)..

I can tell you this.. I haven't been to alot of spas but I have been to at least 4, and this is the worst one so far.. I will never go back there again.. One more thing I forgot to add.. Their showers are adjoining and if you don't actually lock the other side the other person can just walk in on you. I can tell you that they definitely did not lock the door or point out to me that it had to be locked. Luckily I saw it if not, there goes my modesty!! Haha.. And they never clean the shower one.. I could still see white patches of dried scrub or mask bits on the floor lor.. Haiz.. Such a waste 'coz the decor is really nice..

Then went to meet one of my Yahoo! buyers and she was so sweet and friendly and just happened that we were going the same way so talked to her abit on the MRT and.. She offered me a job.. Lolz.. Still not sure what I wanna do yet so ya.. Still have alot of thinking to do about it..

Then went to meet Jace and Jas.. I tell you, I'm so pro!!! My bank account has a grand total of only $14+ left and I STILL managed to buy 4 tops, one pair of shorts and 2 undies.. Hehe.. All thanks to my Isetan vouchers and my prepaid Fox card!~ Happy..

We went to Coffee Bean to chill after dinner. Just sat there crapping and playing daidee and updating each other and laughing till our sides hurt and the people at the other table kept looking at us.. Haven't laughed so much in a long long time.. I love my babes.. I can just totally forget EVERYTHING when I'm with them.

Wanted to write more details, but now I somehow don't have the mood to anymore. I definitely feel better after blogging though.. Plus all the advice from my friends.. I know now what I really have to do and just force myself to do it. I wish I could listen to Harriet but sometimes being happy is not enough.. Plus everything else inside of me.. I'm not sure what will make me happy anymore. Next month I will be a better person.. I might or might not be happy.. But at least there would be some kind of relief(?).. I dunno.. What would it be like to go for confession after nearly 3 years.. I really dunno.. I just wish things could be different..

lost fanatic

oh my god!!! i just watched lost and it's so fucking interesting!!! the suspense is killing me!!! btw.. i don't mean i watched the show on tv.. i just watched the 2nd last episode of season 2!!!! ahhhhhhhh... i don't think i can sleep tonight till i've watched the last episode!!!!!

ok.. just wanted to share my excitement with you all.. byeeee..

this is for my 'loyal readers'

Lolz.. You all so fast already getting so demanding ah.. It's only been 2 days since I last blogged lehz.. =X And I've been fucking tired!!!! Yesterday and today did morning shift plus OT till 10pm.. and 2 more morning shifts to go with one more OT on Sunday!! *faints* My poor feet..

Funny lehz.. I work there almost a year already and yesterday was the first time I did OT. Yesterday was horrible!! The customers were all fucked up (more about that later) and the team I was working with was so annoying.. Most of them perpetually look like they just ate 10 sour plums at once.. Kns.. So tough working with them! Today was better 'coz of my darling Irene!! But the customers were still fucked up..

Which brings me to my discovery of the year.. My customers more or less do not make use of their senses at all.

1.They are blind.

Customer standing in front of Shiseido counter looking around for help. When I approach her, she asks me, "Do you have Shiseido here?" !!!!!! Don't laugh lor, it happens all. the. time. And today one asshole even asked me whether we sell perfumes!! Like, how dense can these people get??! It's called PERFUMES AND COSMETICS for a reason. And I didn't call him asshole just 'coz he's dumb. He made me fucking irritated today!! Ask me introduce perfumes, I let him try 10, all 10 also don't like! Somemore take and put back, take and put back.. And want dirt cheap prices.. Please lahz.. Go Mustafa better lor..

2.They are deaf.

This one can forgive lahz.. It's quite cute actually.. Whenever we bring customers to the cashier we have to ask for their flight number, but sometimes they try to give me their phone or credit card number. Haha.. Maybe there's just a problem with my pronunciation..

3.They can't smell!

This is just my personal opinion but sometimes when I let them try perfume which you could probably smell a mile away, they tell me they can't smell anything.. I work in that shop the whole damn day so if I can smell something I don't see why they can't.

4.They are mute.

On purpose of course. Those idiots. These are the ones I hate the most.. You can talk talk talk or even just ask a simple yes/no question and they will just simply ignore you.. Or maybe they are under the deaf category?

Ok.. I can't think of anything for sense of touch but I know my customers definitely have no brains!! Need I explain more? Haiz.. Actually got alot more things to complain about but now no time I need to get my beauty sleep!! All I can say is, luckily I'm not like my friend who has to go smoke everytime a customer gets on my nerves if not I'll probably be dead by now! My way of relieving stress is to keep cursing and swearing at them silently and I'll occasionally daydream of torturing them.. *evil laugh* It really helps!! =x

careless girl

I just woke up from 14 hours of sleep!! I haven't slept that long in a long loooong time.. Feels so good!! Okok, updates!

On Sat, went to Rush.. So long never go I almost forgot how to dance already lor.. Hehe.. My friends say 2 weeks is not long but for those who always go Rush you all can understand what I mean when I say long right?? By the time i went there (after work) most of them sehz already lor.. 'Coz it was Nick's birthday then they drink drink drink.. Lolz.. Basically the whole night I was sticking with Xiao Huang 'coz she came with me and she was bored, but towards the end someone kinda gave me some advice.. Haiz.. Feel so confused again.. Luckily I'm quite a stubborn person.. =x

We left Rush around 3.30am to go watch movie with Sherlyn and her friend Dexter, but in the end when we reached there Xiao Huang say she don't wanna watch movie so we went to eat supper first, then Xiao Huang went home and Dexter called his friend to come watch the movie with us. I tell you.. Don't watch Bewitching Attraction!! It's one of the worst Korean shows I've ever watched!! Ok, make that one of the worst shows I've ever watched. And since I'm a movie freak and I like most of the shows you should know when I say it's bad, it's really bad.. Sucky.. I told Sherlyn we should have watched Find Me Guilty instead!! So after that lousy show Dexter and his friend wanted to go eat, but we were quite tired so he sent us home..

Then Sunday and Monday work work work.. boring..

Yesterday.. I went to Batam!! Took alot of pictures but the sad thing is.. I lost the device that transfers the pictures to my computer!!! So irritating lahz.. And I lost my shades too!! Somemore it's brand new and I haven't even worn it before!! *sobz* So fucking careless.. I shouldn't have left the device thingy in the pouch together with the camera.. Think it dropped out somewhere 'coz I kept taking my camera out.. So anyway.. will blog about the Batam trip as soon as I get a new transfer device thingy.. =(

no money and no honey =(

Ahhhhh!!!*screamz*Die liaoz.. It's only the 5th and my money is depleting rapidly!!!! =(

Yesterday I went to the airport to send my Auntie off 'coz she was going back to Australia then I used my airport pass to go in and buy some stuff from my perfume shop.. Guess how much I spent?!! 530 freaking dollars!!! Some more that was after discount.. =x

And that's not all.. I also went to splurge on this very nice Guess bag..

Nice nice nice??!!! It's actually $94 but i managed to get discount only paid $76!!! I know it's stupid and impulsive 'coz I'm running short of cash but I don't care!!! Wo xi huan!!! Hee.. So happy.. Jace nearly killed me when she found out the price.. =X

Then went home and had to rush to get ready 'coz supposed to watch movie with Irene and Jasmin (my colleagues) and Jasmin's bf.. Tried to curl my hair but ended up looking like a mess so I tried to straighten it back then became even worse!! So I just fuck care and went down 'coz Jasmin's bf drove them over to fetch me.. Last min her bf's friend also came then never book movie ticket for him lucky just nice got one left.. Watched mi:3.. Very nice!!! Tom Cruise and that English guy who also acted in Matchpoint (can't remember his name) DAMN droolsome lor!!! =P~~ Abit unbelievable but what you expect from a show like that.. got 2 cute guys I happy liaoz.. Hehe.. Then there was this crucial moment in the show that it was kinda quiet then this lady kept talking loudly in some other language then another guy just said "SHUT UP LAH!" then everybody in the cinema laughed.. So that kinda spoilt the moment.. Lolz.. But it WAS funny lah..

After that we went to play pool for awhile then went to the Bencoolen Kopitiam to eat supper but like nothing nice to eat there.. Saw a few ah kuas though.. Hah.. So we decided to go Geylang to eat instead and finally settled on the famous soya bean shop.. I ordered xiao long bao but their one no soup inside lor!! Like all dry.. But not bad lahz.. Still quite nice.. Went home around 5 like that..

Then just now around 4 plus then woke up.. Went to shop(!!!) with Jace and Jas.. No money still wanna shop.. Bought a very very nice pair of sunglasses!! Next time then show you all.. Hee.. Went to Billy Bombers for "dinner" around 10.. I wanted to go watch movie but due to unfortunate circumstances (Jace had to wake up early the next day and Jas only wanted to go Phuture) we went to Phuture instead..

Phuture quite boring at first.. So we went over to Zouk 'coz Paul Oakenfold was there.. Jas was like kinda excited but I couldn't care less.. But his music IS kinda nice lahz.. Even though its TRANCE (Iwant techno!!!!!).. So after awhile we all went back to Phuture again.. Dance till my heels nearly break and my feet aching like hell lor!! Wah lau.. I'm not gonna wear heels to club for a long long time.. Tomorrow go back to work think I can't chiong for sales already.. My poor feet..

So yup.. Now I'm back home and sad 'coz I realised I spent so much by the time Great Singapore Sale comes (which is soon) I no more money to shop already!! *sobz* What to do.. Retail therapy is the only therapy i can get.. =))

so sick

yes.. the song(by ne-yo) got one thing right.. i'm so fucking sick of love songs!!!

what else??

i'm sick of being sad..
i'm sick of being pissed..
i'm sick of wishing and hoping..
i'm sick of crying in the bathroom, on my bed, in the cab.. everywhere!!
i'm sick of seeing couples..
i'm sick of feeling helpless..
i'm sick of needing..
i'm sick of wanting..
i'm sick of being contradicting..

argh!!! i really cannot stand it anymore!!! wtf is wrong with me?!!!

i'm so damn sick of myself.

a very very nice clip >_<

Yesterday I went to watch Aquamarine at Cine with my colleagues.. It's not bad.. Very good for watching with your girl pals.. Plus there was this gorgeous guy with a to-die-for body in the show!! *sighz* I'm liking ang mohs more and more everyday!! But the show really got me thinking about one thing.. how do mermaids reproduce?? They don't have the human reproduction organ and I don't think they have the fish one either!! So anybody care to enlighten me on that? Unless.. they come out of the water, turn into humans, give birth and then go back into the ocean with their mer-baby!! Lolz.. Just a thought.. And I did a very stupid thing lor!! Before the show we went to draw money and i withdrew $1000 by accident!!! Kaoz.. how stupid right?!! So I walked around the whole night literally treating my bag as though there was gold inside!! So dumb lor.. I think i pressed $500 before but luckily that time not enough money.. Just nice yesterday i just got my pay.. Haha..

Anyway, after the show we went downstairs and I saw some people.. Dunno if it's considered as fate or NO fate.. but whatever.

Wanna know how i make myself happy nowadays? I look at this clip..

Warning: People who have an extreme dislike for techno and bengs (namely, Jasmine) please do not press play or suffer the consequences.



Haha.. Sorry to all the people who hate techno but I came across this in Ivy's blog and I stole it from her.. So actually people who read her blog must have seen it already. Hehe.. So smooth lor the way he dance!! I watched it more than 3 times and all the time i was smiling away!! Wonder why he don't wanna show his face though.. maybe he sibei ugly.. =X Actually even though his moves very nice and all I think he like abit slow lehz.. Plus my friend dances nicer.. But I don't have a clip of my friend so I'll just make do with slow but nice!

I'm gonna sleep now. Tomorrow working morning.. =(

Hmm.. maybe I'll go watch the clip again first. =P

fucking emotional conflict

anger and sadness.. i just realised they don't go very well together..

this is my typical day now.. wake up..spend most of the time out with my friends or working with my friends.. happy!! then i go home.. try to sleep.. even if i'm fucking tired i can't.. for once.. i can't sleep even though i'm tired.. until i cry myself to sleep.. ok.. thats the sadness part..

then i get fucking pissed.. with myself.. why should i even feel sad? pissed with her.. for everything that has happened and for not caring.. enough.. and THEN.. bloody pissed with myself again!! 'coz why should i care whether she cares?! and pissed 'coz i should be happy not sad.. i should actually be H.A.P.P.Y!!!! 'coz this is what is RIGHT..

fuck! i hate this whole emotional rollar coaster.. and thats not the worst part.. the worst part is i went through all this just like a few bloody months back and i nearly GOT OVER IT!!! i knew i shouldn't have done it.. that's why i'm forcing myself not to do the 'wrong' thing again.. but it just feels much worst this time..

i can feel it overwhelming me.. the urge to just pick up the phone and dial.. THATS the sadness part.. but luckily.. i guess i'm more of an angry/stubborn person.. that's just what's pushing me to move on.. move on..

so what am i doing now? i'm forcing myself to focus on the anger while trying to hold back my tears..

i feel much stronger when i'm angry.. being sad is like a weakness to me.. it hurts much more than anger.. i hate it...

i have to get out more.. i have to occupy myself.. i just have to get over this!!!! i cannot stand being like this anymore.. it's madness..

anyway.. sorry if this whole damn entry is not logical.. i promise the next one will be better.. i don't wanna be weak..

it's the 27th today

I wanted you to know
I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel light when you're gone away



everything else that should be in this entry is in my personal diary. =(

my longest job ever

The place was full of Japanese and Korean people shouting here and there. Sounded alot like a pasar malam really. It was crowded and chaotic with sales people just trying to 'grab' whatever sales they could make. There was a sound of a bottle being dropped and broken and I overheard a lady telling her young daughter," You see darling, people break things here. Please be careful." I dunno why but for some reason I thought the way she said it was very funny. I followed a customer round and round even though he totally ignored me when I asked if he needed any help(fucker!). Then I see my colleague talking to a very kan chiong jap guy who's almost shouting at her, she kept frowning 'coz she didn't know how to communicate with him and she ended up just saying," chotomate, chotomate!!" over and over again..

Haiz. My job. To love it or hate it? Seriously lahz, sometimes I really feel like I'm working in a market instead of a perfume shop. I really dunno whether to quit anot lehz.. So I decided to do what I always do when I'm faced with a dilemma.. make a list of advantages and disadvantages.. here it is..

Things I hate about my job

1. I have to clean every fucking day!!! And I totally hate cleaning.. ruins my delicate hands.. hah!

2. Irritating customers who come in, spray tons of perfume and then say," I can't decide which one I want." and walk off. *rolls eyes*

3. The morning shift kinda sucks.. it starts at 6am.. and I usually can't sleep before 1am..

4. Stupid customers who think EVERYTHING revolves around their country. "excuse me, is this in [insert their country name] dollars??" yeah yeah.. The bloody big S in front of the $ sign is just there for fun.. And seriously.. Which perfume would ever cost 68 RMB?!!!

5. The target keeps going higher.. makes us more stressed!!=(

6. China customers who talk in that extremely cheena accent that really gives me goosebumps. Seriously, by the time I'm done talking to them I'm so exhausted from speaking so much chinese at one go..

7. 2 fucked up supervisors who keep picking on me!! Ok lah, make that one plus one newbie sup who probably just agrees with everything the other one says to curry favour or something.. irritating!!

8. Customers who come in, ask for a particular item and then tell me they already bought it at MUSTAFA or some other cheap skate place for a much cheaper price.. knn.. buy already still come and ask for what?! Ok, the list about irritating and fucked up customers just go on and on.. I think if I continue I don't need to sleep already. Customers asking for lux soap, shampoo, hair gel, packet tissues.. all in the irritating customers category. Customers who think they are so bloody rich but still haggle for free gifts, customers who say they are going to buy 'ALOT' but end up buying one mascara, customers who ignore me, customers who ask for samples without even buying anything.. all in the fucked up category. And there's more.. another time then tell u all..

9. The small stuff like packing stock nearly every alternate day, doing price change every month, making us have 'dinner' at 4pm, cutting our ot pay..

10. My uniform is fucking ugly.

Things I love about my job

1. I love my colleagues!! Ok, most of them. At least the ones who are not back-stabbing, customer grabbing bitches. =))

2. I have 2 days off a week!! Even better then an office job!! Plus I hate office jobs.

3. I have one supervisor that I totally love.. she's so nice to me.. >_<

4. I get freebies all the time!!! Go training, get free stuff.. hit target, get free stuff.. special occasions, get free stuff.. plus with my beauty allowance I have a whole lifetime worth of perfumes, skincare and cosmetic. Now.. if only they don't expire..

5. My break is one hour and there is mtv to watch, computers to use(although actually it is only for passengers =x ), cheap canteen food and a great view of the aeroplanes.. but I see until sianz already.. only makes me feel like going overseas!!

6. I kinda like having some kinda target to work towards. I guess that's what keeps me motivated. Although they don't have to make it so high and make people over motivated until everyone becomes back-stabbing and customer grabbing.

7. Job satisfaction. Not all customers are bad.. the nice ones make us feel really happy and satisfied..

8. The pay is enough to support my luxurious lifestyle.. hehe..

So.. I guess the bad points seem more but the freebies can count for 5 points!!haha.. Anyway, I really dunno whether I should quit.. any suggestions? After next month I'd have been working there for one year!! So excited.. 'coz I never stayed at any job for one year before..

Haiz. I guess I have alot of thinking to do about my life.

so near and yet so far

i finally truly understand the meaning of these words.

should I just eat my words?

Went to Phuture with Jace yesterday.. saw Charm on the way in and met Xiao Huang and her friend inside.. bumped into Pearlyn and her boyfriend inside too.. lolz.. It was damn crowded as usual so Xiao Huang wasn't very happy then she went to join her friends over at Zouk. What's with the guys at Phuture ah?? Seriously lah.. some of them are damn fucked up. Always anyhow touch touch touch.. don't they know its bad manners to try grinding someone when you BARELY KNOW THEM? Argh! That's why I prefer Rush.. plus of 'coz techno rules!! After that we went to the Lido Mac to just sit down, eat and play cards. Went back at 6 am plus..

Jace stayed over at my house then today we went to the new Cathay cinema to watch The Art Of Seduction. Eh.. actually it's old cinema turned new.. Anyway, I was so excited lor!! And it definitely lived up to my expectations.. The cinema actually looks alot like Cine but the shops they are gonna open there all sounds very nice!! Got the Shihlin Street Snacks, Ben and Jerry's, Adidas and alot of others that I can't remember but I know it's mostly FOOD!! That's why I'm so happy.. haha..

Actually in the theatre I was telling Jace it's so scary the place was actually vacant for one period of time then like so abandoned and everything.. dunno how come Cathay kept it for all these years.. Then we just came to the conclusion that they probably closed it down since it wasn't making money and was waiting for Cine to bring in the money so that they could reopen the old one. But still.. just thinking of the old one.. Freaky.. =X

Then we rushed to catch the last bus 'coz the show finished around 11.45pm so actually we only went town for awhile 'coz we reached there around 8.45pm.. When I reached home.. Hmm..

It's been a long time since I last cried. Somemore out of the blue.. Actually I can't even remember when was the last time but probably when I was watched A Season For Love.. Haiz.. For the past 2 weeks I actually felt like I'm not even attached, maybe 'coz I'm so used to doing so many things with her. Just when I thought I was getting used to that feeling, emotions have to come flooding through me.. argh..this is so irritating!! I hate this stupid nagging feeling I have that something's wrong but I just can't put my finger on it.. What do I really want? Can't be that I myself dunno what I want right?

I guess I should be happy 'coz all this is probably leading to what is right, what is good. But it doesn't feel right and definitely doesn't feel good for me!!! I fucking hate this feeling lor.. maybe 'coz I haven't felt it for too long.. unhappiness and anger and frustration.. I really dunno what to do.. =(

I guess I just have to find out one thing first.

Private and Confidential

What the hell.

I was sitting at my comp waiting for some photo editing program to download(yes.. I wanna be like all those 'creative' people from friendster and learn how to make my photos nicer) when my dad came home with the papers which I decided to read while waiting..

JC STUDENT KILLS HIMSELF, CONVINCED HIS PRIVATE PARTS WERE TOO SMALL

Like I said, what the hell!!! Seriously, are the people nowadays getting more stupid or what(No disrespect to the dead)??! Argh.. to take your own life just because you think that your dick is too small??!!! I mean like, come on.. I think my boobs are kinda small but you don't see me fretting over it(other than the occasional whining) do you?

Anyway, out of point.. the point is.. look at the headline again.. They totally pushed the fact that he is a JC student! In fact, I think he is from TJC, 'coz they kept mentioning Bedok Bedok Bedok and I think that's the only JC around here lor.. So! What's with the JC thing? I guess they are trying to imply like.. 'Wah.. JC.. So smart and yet so dumb..' So.. I guess the thing now is, students from JC are self-conscious while poly students are not.. After all, how we can forget about Tammy from NYP and the famous sex scandal??

Which I would like my two cents' worth on by the way.. I definitely do not think what she did was smart at all. Please.. using your handphone to film yourself having sex.. that's like dying to get into trouble. Using your handphone to film yourself having sex and not deleting it?? Definitely going to get into trouble.. especially given the fact that she had a lot of enemies..

Please girls.. DON'T be stupid. If anything happens the girl gets all the flak while the guy gets away scot-free. So the next time you get tempted to whip out the handphone while doing the dirty deed, be it whether you're a poly/JC student or not a student, please please think twice.. thrice.. or however many times it takes for you not to do it..

What was I talking about again? Oh yah.. the JC student and his dick. May they rest in peace. Seriously.

how to ruin your mouth and face

1. Do not sleep.
I went out to watch movie with Irene and Sherlyn on Fri night and then went with Elaine, Jeff, Kenny and Alvin to eat.. and then.. I went straight to work for my 3 hours OT!!

2.Eat chocolates.
Boost to be exact.. the most 'heaty' chocolate in the world.. I ate that straight after my OT on the way home..

3.Go clubbing.
Clubbing = Drinking + Smoking + Passive smoking + All the fake smoke they blow around in clubs everytime. But I totally enjoyed Rush on Sat despite the consequences.. soooo fun!! Didn't go for like ages lor.. I think 2 weeks? Hehe.. danced like a mad woman..

4.Eat more chocolates.
Sunday was Easter.. so of 'coz.. there were lotsa Easter eggs.. which are all CHOCOLATES!! I ate like 3 different kinds lor!!

And now I'm totally paying for all that.. got ulcers and alot of pimples liao!! From tomorrow onwards I shall not eat heaty stuff till I recover!!=P

Anyway, so much other stuff happened I dunno where to start.. but since Jace gave her consent to let me tell all.. to make a long story short.. Phil was kinda seeing another girl while seeing her.. Phil lied to both of them.. Phil denied everything.. Phil was exposed 'coz everybody had proof.. Phil continued lying.. so basically.. i guess by now everybody knows Phil is a fucking bastard liar and two-faced person..

For the record though.. Jace is alright.. she was just waiting for the correct moment to break up but couldn't bring herself to do it.. I guess now she feels indifference.. which is good.. 'coz that is the opposite of love..

On a totally different note.. my whole week was basically like crap and now i feel even more pissed and crappy.. Whatever.. Gotta go sleep..

be good on Good Friday

actually i wanted to post this much earlier but was doing some stuff. yes yes today is Good Friday.. everybody is happy, mainly because.. it's a public holiday!!yay.. can enjoy and relax and do all the stuff you enjoy.. right?? some people don't even know how this day came about or what actually happened today..

hmm.. most of you watched The Passion of the Christ right? and i bet most you cried too. but once everyone walks out of the cinema, the image is forgotten.. even for me. that's why we need this day to remind us..

how he died for us..

yes.. today is the day the passion of the christ happened.. so how about doing something nice for someone? or maybe just take what's left of the day to appreciate your life.. it's the simple things that actually mean alot sometimes.. like.. having the use of your hands and legs and all five senses, each breath that you take, not being poor(poor meaning you only have ONE pair of shoes, not meaning you have no money to buy a laptop), having some kind of education, living in a country without war and having people who love you.. just think of all these little things and try not complaining for today.. and also, try not to lie, steal, cheat or rob a bank today k?

i wanted to blog alot more about that but wait you all complain say i too preachy.. =X so anyway.. on a not-so-preachy note.. i'm still using the slimming gel!! i'm so smart lor i found a foolproof way to use it!! i used my face mask brush to apply it.. lolz.. but feels abit like i'm marinating a chicken lahz.. like, i'm using the slimming gel to marinate myself.. -_-"

ok, now have to go clean my ultra messy room.. =(

girls and guys and girls

Why do some people just refuse to let go of someone when that person is in actual fact already long gone?
Why do some keep going back for more even after getting hurt time and again?(obviously not sticking by the 'once bitten, twice shy' rule)
Why do some girls keep defending their 'bfs' even though they know deep down that there's nothing to defend?!!

It really irritates the hell out of me you know!! Are today's girls really so weak and lonely that this is what they've become? At least THREE of my girl friends let their 'bfs' have their way everytime.. and they claim it's because of 'love'.. can you all please wake up anot?!!! Why would you wanna love a guy who uses you and manipulates you and only calls you when he feels like it??(And most of the times when he feels like it means he feels like it)There's a thin line between love and stupidity for goodness' sake!

Why do you wanna cling onto him?
Why do you wanna surprise him on his birthday knowing he won't appreciate it?
Why do you wanna feel upset that he doesn't message you?(you should be used to it by now)
Why do you wanna bake brownies for him?
Why do you wanna let yourself be a sex slave?
Why do you even consider him your 'BF' when you only meet twice a week to do it and he doesn't even bother to message you at least once a day??
Why why why???!!

Some people might say i'm no better off 'coz i'm not even with a guy.. but look at the state of guys nowadays!!Before all this happened I was already quite convinced that the guys nowadays are just crap.. and now.. voila!What more proof do i need? Of 'coz, I don't mean every single guy out there is bad.. but just looking at my friends miserable states.. I'd think the statistics should be around 75%(and i'm already being very nice)?

You say you love him.. yes, i know love is blind.. but it's not deaf and dumb(in both ways) too!! How many times must he hurt you before you'll let go? How many times does it take for you to get tired? The way i see it, the sooner it ends.. the better.. for all of you(you know who you are).. If you don't agree.. then.. too bad.. it's my blog anyway.. haha!

Of 'coz for all my friends who are in happy relationships.. congrats!!You found the 25% of guys who are nice.. As for me.. give me a girl anytime.. (hehe.. not just ANY girl of 'coz.. the one who cares for me and cooks for me and gives me warmth and makes me smile and sayangs me and says i'm pretty even when i look sibei ugly and just.. loves me for me.. my baby..)

P.S. Can you all tell my spelling and punctuation is now 99% correct already??? I'm on my way to being Singapore's top journalist!! hee..

irene's chalet

juz came back from parkway with jace..it was our 7th!!lolz..last time we used to have this 'tradition' that every 7th of the month we would go somewhere nice to eat. after awhile we both got too busy and gradually stopped but now trying to do it again!!

we went to jack's place 'coz she HAS NEVER BEEN THERE B4!!can you believe it?like everyone..EVERYONE i know has eaten at jack's place b4 lor, even my most sua ku friends(dun dare to mention names =X)!!hehe..anyway it was good..but we mostly talked about you-know-who and i wish i could say it spoilt my appetite but it didn't..haha..anyway..now about irene's birthday!!

on wed afternoon we went over to her house to help her out with all the preparations and it was the first time i saw her house!damn i should have taken some photos of her room..it was like some jolin cai shrine lor!!posters of her all over..*pengz*lucky i don't mind her..actually i even kinda like her also lahz..

so..her dad sent us over to the chalet..and..it's the first time in many many years that i sat on a lorry!!i think the first time was when i was around 5(?) and my uncle tompang our stuff when we moved house..

sherlyn and me and i really dunno whose hand that is!! hopefully it's just the person who sat next to me..=X

anyway..so we reached the coasta sands resort around 3 plus then i realised i forgot to bring a perfume which i was supposed to pass to another friend..kaoz..i was like damn forgetful that day lor..i ALSO forgot to bring the present and when i went all the way back home to get the stuff i forgot..i freaking left my hp at home!!!!at the rate i'm going i'm afraid by the end of the year i'll forget my name!!*argh*not only that..the next day i forgot to bring my wallet to work also lor!!>_<

anyway..back to the chalet..the VIP of the night was not the birthday girl herself but someone else..

FIFI!!!!!!!!!!!

yes..a dog. not just any dog of 'coz..it's a gay dog!!!lolz..it's a guy and the owner ms jasmine huang(the ultra thin girl with curls) named it FIFI!!!hahaha..but isn't she..oops..i mean he..sooooo adorable??!!!its the first time i actually really held a doggie!!just that few hours made me feel like getting one too!

but of 'coz..most of my time spent there was playing mahjong..after all..it has been quite awhile since i played..plus i was kinda forced to play..=x the people playing were all lao jiaos and they were playing 50 cent/1 dollar lor!!so i kinda DIDN"T wanna play..until irene had to go entertain her guests and i was left with no choice but to face the other 3 on my own 'coz no one else dared to!!

well..in the first round..i lost $200!!but luckily irene was nice enough to play the 2nd round and cover for me so total i lost was about $100..then again..i guess its only right that she help me since she was the one who asked me to play in the first place..*bleahz*

anyway..talking about money lost kinda makes me sad and cranky..so on a happier note, here's her birthday pic taken with me!!now those of you who are not my colleagues can see what the birthday girl looks like..btw..she is one of my closest colleagues..=)

after everyone left, grace irene and me had a mini feast pigging out!!actually..the poor birthday girl bbq-ed while we 2 pigs ate..=x sorry irene!!

aww..she looks so pitiful..haha..anyway just look at all the food!!like that how to lose weight?!!!*sighz*ok..then around an hour after we ate grace went home and i stayed with her till around 3pm?overall..it was fun even though i lost money..'coz when you have good food and great company..nothing can get you down!!haha..=x

and lastly to my darling baby..you will make the headlines sooner or later either when you make me very happy or very angry..hope its the former k?lolz..IMU!;)

hot stuff

ok..enough is enough..i'm sitting here now feeling like i've juz been scalded or worse..n all for the sake of vanity!!

around one hr ago i applied my red hot slimming chilli gel which i bought frm SaSa, and up till now its STILL BURNING!!!i cannot take it anymore lahz!!one hr already lehz!!ya, you'd tink that i would have been cautious enough given the name plus the extra warning which read CAUTION:EXTRA HOT!! but no..i juz tot like..how bad can it be..coz i tried it b4..but now i realised my mistake!!when i tried it i put a bit on one arm n now i put a whole lot on my tummy, thighs and arms!!!!*sobz*

actually last time when i worked at SaSa the customers already gave feed back that it was very burning but the idiot in me juz tot coz they were weak n I AM NOT!!!n now..i'm suffering for it..

n that's not the worst part lor!!haiz..i, being a multi-tasker, did one thing NO ONE should ever try to multi-task..after putting on the gel..i went to put on a face mask..n..within three minutes, my face felt like it was burning!!KNN!!somemore i alredi washed my hands lor!*weeps*

luckily after i put some ice n savlon on my face it didn't feel so hot alredi..if not i'll be crying now instead of blogging. i could have done the same thing for all the other parts lah but i'm juz too stubborn lahz..i dun believe i can't tahan this till the burning stops..=X

it actually feels like being on fire plus having your skin peeled off layer by layer plus having three tattoos done at once. but it's slightly better now alredi..n i still have one more whole tube!!*_*



that's my arm by the way..even though i like lobsters i dun wanna be one!!!lucky my face nv swell up if not i dunno how i'm going for irene's birthday chalet tml!!

i tink i'll still try to finish the 2 tubes though..=X