no updates for 10 days!!

sobz. my house is upgrading now, so i'll be staying at my parent's friends house during the upgrading period and there's no computer there!!! dunno how i am gonna survive TEN days without internet access.. so ya, this is juz my last entry for u ppl till i get my house back. aniwae u shud b used to me disappearing for long periods of time right? lolz.

on the bright side, the 'new house' is really super nice!!! its a condo with all the normal facilities like swimming pool and gym but the thing i'm really most fascinated with is that.. IT HAS A PRIVATE LIFT!!!!! how cool is that?? the lift only stops at our floor n no other!! so that means no more long waits for the lift.. i wish i could juz move in there permanently.. haha. aniwae its still at bedok so no problem for me.

ok!! i'm at a cybercafe now, gtg alredi.. will be back wif updates on jas bdae, shiwan's bdae.. and the celebrations at sentosa!!!

firefly..

i dunno why but this song just struck something in my heart..

When I said go I never meant away
You ought to know the freaky games we play
could you forgive and learn how to forget
hear me as I'm calling out your name

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

You and me
we shared a mystery
we were so close
like honey to the bee
And if you tell me how to make you understand
I'm minor in a major kinda way

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

Fly firefly through the sky
come and play with my desire
don't be long don't ask why
I can't wait another night

i dunno why but. i've been thinking of her..

picturesque

As usual, been sooo busy with working and clubbing!! Which means drinking, smoking, dancing and singing! But in between I managed to squeeze in time to..

Meet my long lost twin!(030707)

This girl has the exactly the same day of birth as me!!

The top pic is at Bottoms Up and the bottom pic is outside Dbl O the following day with another 2 of my friends. I know its still considered working and clubbing BUT before drinking the first day we went to watch a movie k!! But it was a very sucky show. And you know when I say sucky it really sucked. The show was a thai one [13 Death Game] and I was the one who suggested watching it thanks to Irene. Supposed to be like fear factor gone wrong but was just quite lame la.

Anyway, digressing. We agreed that I'm the english speaking version of her and she's the chinese speaking version of me. And the funny thing is, I like ah bengs while she likes english speaking guys. LOLZ. Can we just exchange languages?

Oh ya, her name is Jenn and she's my ex-gf's best friend. We also agreed that guys are bastards and girls are fan jian, but when I told her I wanna be crooked again and asked her to intro bungs to me she don't want! Pui. Her reason being, I must only have one gf then got sweeter memories.. So unfair lor!! Keke..

Celebrate the 7th with my bestie!!(070707)

Long long time ago, Jace and me made a pact that 7th will be a day that we spend together going facials, spa, pigging out.. Basically just pampering ourselves and having fun. But coz of our busy schedules we haven't done that for a long long time. So just happened that I asked her to accompany me to this Stila function and it was the 7th!! Somemore triple 7th, which also happens to be Live Earth Day!!

Her new hairstyle super cute and unique right?? The back half shaved also lor!! Haha. Crazy girl. And I'm really seriously thinking of getting curls!! The one in the pic was done temporarily at the Stila function. I think I'm mad too la. Spent $130 on Stila products which I NEVER used before just to get a nice pink Stila tote!!

Nice?

Luckily, I won some $200 worth of Stila products in the lucky draw there so I don't feel so remorseful over this impulse buy. Hehe.

And to my dear best friend, no matter how many other friends I have, I'll always remember all the ups and downs we went through together and I will never abandon you k!!! So please don't think otherwise.

Celebrate Winnie's birthday with my babes(080707)

Everyone was there again!! Nowadays attendance getting better and better for all our gatherings. It started off normally.. We were just catching up and bitching and crapping and eating and smoking.. Until the cake came..

The birthday girl
Oh-so-sinful, melt in your mouth chocolate cake from rive gauge!!

We gluttons got so crazy about the cake that we had to pose with it..

Yes. It was really that nice.

Then we got bored again and decided to play the Zhong Ji Mi Ma game again. Whoever lost just had do a stupid pose. I know it sounds easy, but everyone at Mac was looking at us lor! Not surprising, judging the amount of noise we made. Familiar ?

Egyptian

Monkey

Er. Plainly what it looks like it is.

Elephant

Lion

Penguin?

Bird

Superman

Jas trying to scratch her armpit

Shiwan touching her butt

Winnie digging her nose

Lifya trying to do a Marilyn Monroe

This looks innocent but is actually RA

Winnie auditioning for Indian show

Who wants to collect me? =X

And of coz the last pose was left for the best. Jace actually didn't wanna play but once she started playing, the worst poses were thought of by HER! But her luck was damn good and she didn't even have to do one forfeit so eventually she just got sabo-ed. (Sorry girl! It wasn't my idea!!)

Pic of the day. The big baby in a baby chair.

Ok, think this post should be long enough to last for awhile, i gotta go work now. =)

i'm crazy

about cheng yuan chang!!! i love love love love love love absolutely super super really chao love him!!!! haha. i'll do anything within my abilities if i can just talk to him!!!! i wanna go taiwan look for him liaoz!!! *sighz* juz watched the finale of [Re Qing Zhong Xia].. he is the love of my life..

ya la i noe i'm super childish. pui. long long longgg update soon.. *sighz* i'm gonna go dream about him liaoz..

..and finally..

updates!! Yup, I finally mustered up enough determination to decide to give a proper entry. Yes, it's sad, my lack of willpower, self-control and determination. I've been smoking stick after stick, eating chocolate after chocolate, drinking beer after beer.. You get the point. I think I REALLY need someone to/who can control me and make me stop all these. And by control, I actually mean bribe me with candies and movies and flowers and the sweetest stuff. *sigh*

Anyway, actually I realised got not much to update.. Been hanging out with all my babes, clubbing, MJ-ing, KTV-ing and most of all before you people think I'm just a bum, WORKING!! Ok, abit on the Malacca trip then..

Malacca Trip (160607)

It was a butt-numbing 3 hour ride there and another 3 hour ride back!! Oh wait wait wait. First let me recount the previous night's incidents. Basically I got pissed drunk and came home at 3am trying to sleep, but kept hearing voices in my head asking me to drink. I now know what crazy people feel like. After puking 3 times I realised it was 6am.. Time for us to get going..

So now imagine how I felt like during that whole journey.. Not to mention, it was SUPER boring!! The shops there are kinda sucky and not very cheap, so I just ate throughout the whole journey. Here are the only pics I took..

Hello Kitty ice cream. The only cool thing there.

The place we ate brekkie. Cheap and good.

Bee museum. *yawnz*

Their popcorn chicken is uber small!! Cute!!

Flintstones restaurant. Enough said.

Me and Joycelyn, my cousin(Yes, thats her link on the right.)

Don't ask me why, only when I came back then i realised 90% of the pics are food. I just have this weird fascination with the food there. Ok, fine, I just have this weird fascination with food. I'm a glutton!!!!!!!! But seriously, Malacca got nothing nice to shop!! And by the way, why do people always say," like bees to honey." when actually bees MAKE honey? Hmm.

Other than that been working hard!! Sat was Ah Hao's birthday and the pub was FULL. Before it was full, Yvonne and I just zhi lian-ed.

From Biotherm..

..to one pub..

..to another!!

And now also on the way to insurance, this girl has been through quite alot with me.. Following my footsteps!! Haha. =X

That's us with Ah Hao, Ah Xiong and 2 other unknown guys.. Presumably Ah Hao's friends/customers. That idiot tried to smear cake on our faces and had us running wild all over circular road!! Bet everyone thought we were mad.

Keke, one last thing!! I've been trying on many many skinny jeans and finally found one not bad one but as it's from TopShop and costs S$116, I just thought T'd seek other people's opinion before impulsively buying..

Nice?? Truth please. Jace not allowed to mention anything though. =P

many many taiwan dramas!!!

hahaha..i found a new taiwan show to watch!!! i went to check out epi 8 of [Re Qing Zhong Xia], which btw is still as nice, sweet, funny and romantic as ever, n i realised they uploaded this new show called [Huan Huan Ai] which roughly translates to [Why Why Love].. and the best part is.. MIKE HE and RAINIE YANG r a couple in the show again!!! then got alot of other [DBY] characters oso la.. ppl like steph, shiwan and angele who watch alot of dramas should noe wat i'm talking abt.. very nice!!! go watch go watch!!! but now only got one epi on youtube..hehe..

somemore the weather today so nice..has been super hot for the past few days but it rained today!! if i can b like that everyday, juz enjoying the cooling weather and fairy-tale shows, i'll b a happy happy gal!!! =)

ok la, update next time..i wanna continue watching my show..hee..btw, i LOVE him!!!

joe cheng yuan chang!!

*melt*

annoyed.

it irks me that someone i know exists but dun really know comes to view my profile on frenster every once in awhile. and not only that, at least 5 of her frenz have viewed my profile oso. not only once lor. irritating can. take turns to see ppl's profile. cheap thrill ah? so i've restricted my profile to only my frenz!! hah. i guess that means you'd have nothing better to do now. =)

updates soon!!

sick.

I finally uploaded my pix!! Been sooo bored, stayed at home for TWO whole days already 'coz I've been sick!! Actually I was already sick since last week, but after working at my friend's pub on Sat I came down with fever and was in bed for one whole freaking day yesterday!! Luckily, I'm feeling abit better already so tomorrow can go out!!

Keke.. Now I shall back track..

250507 Fri

This was a good and bad day for me. Good 'coz I passed my m9!!! I was sooo excited la.. 'coz I really didn't expect to pass!! I didn't even study much.. My definition of studying being bringing the text to ktv and reading it while ShiWan sang.. And I have also since passed my m5, leaving only my HI before I become a real full-time insurance agent!! So people.. You know what to do right? Support me abit k?

Ok, bad 'coz after that I went to MoS with ShiWan and met him. Actually using 'him' is abit too lenient when I should actually say bastard or asshole or fucker.. But I'm wayyy above that, of course. On second thoughts maybe I'll go with bastard. =) I had this silly bet/dare thingy with SW and it ended up involving him. And in such a short span of time, so many things happened and I regret alot of them.. But since I can't cry over spilt milk then I shall just start planning my revenge. Haha, no la, I'm over that already.. If this was 5 years back I'd probably really get even but now I just rather let it go. Surprisingly. (For those of you who knows what happened, he actually had the cheek to ask me play mj today!!! Buay paiseh. Pathetic lor.)

Anyway, here are the pix before we actually clubbed.

Note : The sandwich and beer were bought to ensure we could have fun and yet not get too drunk.

'Ad' for Tiger, where her dad happens to work at.

In VD, before going MoS. Told you the big nice chair is for cam-whores!

Ok.. This is funny. I thought I had alot of other things to blog about but looking at all the pictures the other things just seem like my friends and me blatently cam-whoring and other unimportant stuff. PLUS I'm sleepy. Heh. Oh but before I go, I've been changing my hairstyle alot these past few days. Basically from straight to curly to straight to curly. The first time I wanted to do it permanantly but my Zann asked me to try it first so we went for one day setting and it turned out like this..

Alot of my friends said it looked nicer but I just thought I looked super ugly and old so I decided never to perm my hair. So it went back to..

..straight but with that awful fringe. I promise I'm never ever gonna cut fringe again!! I know Cammie said I said that before but this time I really mean it!! But then Biotherm had this promo where there was a free hairstyling with every $130 spent so of coz we(the BAs) took advantage of that and had our hair done for free! And for some reason the hair stylist would never wanna straighten my hair but keep curling it..

Those were on 2 diff days.. So which one nicer?? I still like straight the most but I think the last one alright also.. So maybe I'll think about curling my hair..

sleepy=slow?

Now I know why I made that worst mistake of my life. I read this article online..

Sleepy Heads Are Slow Heads

When you're tired, your brain has trouble integrating thoughts and feelings. The result? Not only will your sleepy brain likely reach a different conclusion when faced with distressing choices, but you'll also take longer to make that decision than you would if you were caught up on your sleep.

It's all because I never get enough sleep!!!! I really have to turn my lifestyle back around lah.. I feel more and more sick everyday. I don't wanna be a smoker/drinker/clubber anymore!!! Ok la, scratch that clubber part. But can anybody teach me how to club without smoking and drinking? =( Btw, I'll be starting work at my friend's pub today, it's only a short term thing though, 'coz my other friend asked me to accompany her work first. Once she gets used to it I'll quit. Then I'll try quitting all the other vices.. =x

Anyway, yesterday the girls had gathering at ShiWan's house and EVERYBODY went. Even Alifya!! If only Mich Sng was still in Singapore.. Quite fun lah, we played bridge and mahjong and crapped and bitched.. I love my babes!! No matter how sad I am, I'll always feel better around them!

K lah, this was just a quick update. Still can't find my cable yet.. blog more soon!

I don't wanna lose myself.

Currently I'm watching [Re Qing Zhong Xia], the show that replaced [HK] on Taiwan timeslot. Like all other shows its funny, sad and SWEET!! I love Joe Cheng!!! Sometimes I really just feel like letting myself get lost in these dramas and forget all about the real world. Coz the real world is scary, harsh, judgmental and so un-fairy-tale-like. But I guess that's why its called real la ah.. Sad.

Just now I was shifting my pics from Yahoo! to Multiply coz it seems that Yahoo! is gonna stop storing photos. Looking back at all my photos i think the time I really wish to go back to is 15 and 18. 15 coz we were all young and carefree without worries and all we had to do was go to school and more or less just hang out after school in our school uniform and bond. 18 coz I feel like that was the time I was truly happy? I suddenly feel like I've changed. Certain principles of mine are just not there anymore. First smoking, then drinking, becomes a habit. Kisses used to be special, now taken so lightly. I think I really have to remember who I was, coz I'm turning into someone I don't wanna become.

So, actually I was planning to quit first then announce it, but I shall say now that I WANNA QUIT SMOKING!! And I'm willing to pay whoever can help me quit $100!! Hehe.. Recently I've been feeling lonely coz everyone around me is attached!! One of the bad points about being single I guess. But I'm trying my best to remember all the good points!! So I shall stop looking for love in the wrong places! Actually, I shall stop looking for love, period. Coz I once told one of the customers at the pub, "You cannot look for love what.. It just happens naturally and it'll be better that way!" So why am I not heeding my own advice?

Talking about the pub, I quit already thanks to the very bad sore throat and cough I now have thanks to the many nights of drinking and smoking. Bad! But then hor, I might be going over to my friend's pub to try working awhile.. Heh. What?? It's bigger so it probably won't be as smoky!! =x

Updates with pics will be up as soon as I find the damn cable to store my pics!!

e zuo ju (prank)

我找不到很好的原因去阻挡这一切的亲密
I could not find a better reason to stop all these intimacy

这感觉太奇异我抱歉不能说明
The feeling is too special. I apologise that I could not explain.

我相信这爱情的定义奇迹会发生也不一定
I believe the meaning of love, and miracles might happen

风温柔得清晰也许飘来好消息
The comfortable and clear wind might bring good news

一切新鲜有点冒险
Everything is so fresh, it might contain some risk.

请告诉我怎么走到终点
Somebody tells me how to reach the finishing line

没有人了解
Nobody understands

没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋
Nobody has the love thats similar to me and that stranger

我想我会开始想念你
I think I will begin to miss you

可是我刚刚才遇见了你
But I just saw you

我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
I believe the meeting is a prank

我想我已慢慢喜欢你
And I think I'm beginning to like you

因为我拥有爱情的勇气
Because I have the courage to love

我任性投入你给的恶作剧
I sink myself in the prank you given me

你给的恶作剧
The prank you given me

我才发现你很耀眼
Now I realize you look bright

请让我再瞧瞧你的双眼
Let me just take a second look at your eyes

没有人了解
Nobody will understand

没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋
Nobody has the love that similar to me and the stranger

I think this song decribes my situation damn well now. I just know its my karma.. I deserve it.

next?

I was so excited abouth VD I forgot to mention that I watched [Next] with Juf and Gary at TM on Thurs and it was really very very nice!!! Its about this guy who can see 2 mins into his future and the ending was power la! Hope they have a sequel.. We were talking about what they would name the sequel 'coz [Next2] and [Next Next] just doesn't sound nice so I was saying they should just name it [Next] again so that we would have a sense of deja vu.. Lolz..

After that went with Juf to meet Cammie at East Coast to chill.. Updated each other on stuff and that woman kept 'promoting' her friend to me la! Say wanna intro us one day all.. Haha.. Really list all the good points some more. Think she'll be a super good match maker.. Then I told her," Guys are such jerks and girls are so emo (not based on my personal experience but another of my friend who just broke up with her gf. luckily mine wasn't that jialat. =x ) we should just be with our close friends." Then she freaked out because she recently started watching [The L Word] which is a les show and according to her 75% of the show is like lesbian porn. ahem. I bet now half the guys who read this will go download that show. Anyway, she and Juf kept talking about so many shows that I feel like watching now!! Esp [Prison Break]!! As if I don't have tons of shows to watch already..

Hmm.. I guess I'm happy being single.. I think right now I'm just super confused. Like one minute suddenly feel sad if there's no one to accompany me then the next minute feel happy that I have all the freedom I like.

I just wish that everyone could be outright with their feelings so that we don't have to try to second guess what the other party is thinking all the time. Ok, I know I sound out of point but I think those closer to me would understand.

Feelings are so irritating. I wish I didn't have them.

velvet dragon

I love the name!!! So Ah Beng la!! Lolz.. Keke.. Here's my update..

The place is abit posher but the dancefloor is now smaller 'coz they have bar counters and chairs surrounding it. Sadly, now ladies' night only got 4 free drinks but bumped into Ivan and his friends yesterday and that was the start of my drinking nightmare!! Drank vodka, bourbon and tequila lor! Don't think I'll be going clubbing for some time. =x But it was super fun la! Damn.. I really have to learn how to club without smoking and drinking!!

Have a couple of pix but kinda blur so go there and experience for yourself ya.. Some of you might find it a lil' too quiet though.. 'Coz the crowd abit less than the Momo one..

the seats

the dancefloor

Us in the toilet. Lolz, they added one big nice velvet chair there for dunno what reason. For camwhores like us to take photos? For drunk people to curl up in? For decor? Maybe all of the above..

us before we got high

Ok, thats about it. I know quite short but ya.. Anyway, I MISS MY 2 SLUTS and my other babes!! Got lotsa stuff to tell you girls lor!! I did something that Jas and more recently, ShiWan, did.. Lolz. =x