i officially hate myself. like ALOT. god, seriously, why can't i just learn from my mistakes instead of making the same mistake twice?!!! i should know very well the evils of alcohol by now then i won't be bumming at home pitying myself.
now that i think about it, i really should have known better. the signs; all the same, except this time i only have myself to blame. (it rhymes!lolz) well, what better way to take my mind off things other then MAHJONG! haha. gonna play in awhile.
updates soon.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Friday, September 05, 2008
TOTALLY RANDOM stuff
First, check out this youtube/myspace singer called Lisa Lavie.
I usually don't like to embed videos unless there are ah bengs or techno involved but this girl is GOOOOD! Nice vocals, nice lyrics and nice tune! If you're very free can go youtube and watch her sing a cover of 'No One'. Nice!
Next, lately I've been feeling nostalgic. I miss being young and happy and carefree without stress. Some might say that I'm still stress free now but I finally have an inkling of what STRESSED means thanks to my job.
Anyway, that wasn't my point la. My point is, I will never be able to be with the person I loved the most. I know it didn't seem like that was my point but now I'm telling you it is. I know I'm being random hence the title. It's so sad just thinking of the past la. I'll never understand why certain things are the way they are. I'm starting to question myself..
I think only a handful of you will understand what I'm talking about so lets keep it that way for the time being.
Lastly, I was reading CLEO and they had an article on '30 Things To Do Before You Turn 30'. Let's see what I've done..
1. Channel a classic movie - throw a drink in a man's face.
Never done before unless you count spitting at my brother by accident. Interesting, will keep it in mind.
2. Delete the words "random" and "totally" from your vocab.
Oops. What's the title of this entry again? Anyway, I have like, 7 years, to do it so no sweat.
3. Divorce toxic friends.
DONE.
4. Learn how to successfully change a car tyre.
I don't even know how to drive yet I learn for what?! Of coz once I get my license I will learn it..
5. Break someone's heart; have your own heart broken.
I dunno what's the logic behind this but done and done.
6. Have a killer joke (you tell perfectly) ready to use for one of those awkward moments.
*Awkward silence* Why did the chicken cross the playground? *pause* To get to the other slide! *Even more awkward silence* Fine, I'll go do more research.
7. Use an alias for a day.
Can consider done. Last time in secondary school everybody had aliases. Mine was Jennifer and Yvonne coz I liked those 2 names. I still like the name Jennifer! =)
8. Dine unaccompanied in a nice restaurant.
I never understood how people could watch movie/club/eat in a restaurant alone so this will be hard to do.
9. Spend a whole pay packet on a pair of shoes.
Trust me. I'd love to! (I just hope Jace is not reading this if not wait she get more depressed.)
10. Break up with a man whom you know is bad for you; similarly, have a fling with a guy whom you know is bad for you!
My boyfriends have never been bad for me (At least, thats what I think!) but most of the flings definately were bad for me..
11. Travel somewhere by youself, be it a foreign country or just a weekend road trip.
Sounds enticing but totally out of the question unless I conquer my fear of ghosts. I'm a scaredy-cat! =x
12. Try something you always said you'd never do - like skydiving or eating escargot.
Well, I did go and get myself tanned didn't I? Lasted a whole freaking year too! In fact the tan lines can still faintly be seen! Argh. Never again. Escargots are YUMMY by the way.
13. Find out which friends you can and can't trust, and learn not to take it the hard way.
This year I found out who I can't trust. Twice. The first one I can let go coz it doesn't really matter to me, but the second one involves money so I think I am entitled to take it the hard way yes?
14. Volunteer for a charity you really care about.
Ok, I still have 7 years!
15. Quit a job without having another lined up.
Done!
16. Live by yourself for at least 6 months.
Never!! I'm scared and dependant.
17. Run (or at least train for) a marathon.
Yay, in the process of doing. Lately my friends all into jogging so I signed up for the KPE run with them. 5km only la, I think I really too long never exercise already. I went jogging with Gary on Mon, ran 1.5km and had stitches, and my thighs ached till Thurs. God, I really must practise if not I'll be crawling through the 5km.
18. Pay off your credit card debt/car loan.
*Calculates*Hmm, should be able to pay off my debts in 7 years time. Heh.
19. Visit a strip club.
Singapore got meh?! What's up with CLEO and these weird suggestions man.
20. Learn how to stand up for yourself whenever you receive poor customer service. You deserve better than that.
I think most of us have already done this. After all, we're Singaporeans. We don't take shit, we COMPLAIN!
21. Learn how to choose the perfect wine.
Boring. Not interested at all.
22. Have a favourite book that isn't chick-lit.
Done!
23. Forgive someone who wronged you; apologise to someone you've betrayed.
Forgiving doesn't mean you have to talk to the person right? Done.
24. Cook an impressive three-course meal for someone.
But I don't want to cause anyone to get food poisoning lehz. =P
25. Confess that (present or past) crush to a friend.
Even better, how 'bout a 17 year infatuation? I'll do it this Christmas, trying to work up the courage.
26. Buy a complete set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill and a lace bra.
Lace bra, I have. The other two, WHATEVER THE HELL FOR??!
27. Go to an art gallery and buy an original piece of art.
I usually don't like to embed videos unless there are ah bengs or techno involved but this girl is GOOOOD! Nice vocals, nice lyrics and nice tune! If you're very free can go youtube and watch her sing a cover of 'No One'. Nice!
Next, lately I've been feeling nostalgic. I miss being young and happy and carefree without stress. Some might say that I'm still stress free now but I finally have an inkling of what STRESSED means thanks to my job.
Anyway, that wasn't my point la. My point is, I will never be able to be with the person I loved the most. I know it didn't seem like that was my point but now I'm telling you it is. I know I'm being random hence the title. It's so sad just thinking of the past la. I'll never understand why certain things are the way they are. I'm starting to question myself..
I think only a handful of you will understand what I'm talking about so lets keep it that way for the time being.
Lastly, I was reading CLEO and they had an article on '30 Things To Do Before You Turn 30'. Let's see what I've done..
1. Channel a classic movie - throw a drink in a man's face.
Never done before unless you count spitting at my brother by accident. Interesting, will keep it in mind.
2. Delete the words "random" and "totally" from your vocab.
Oops. What's the title of this entry again? Anyway, I have like, 7 years, to do it so no sweat.
3. Divorce toxic friends.
DONE.
4. Learn how to successfully change a car tyre.
I don't even know how to drive yet I learn for what?! Of coz once I get my license I will learn it..
5. Break someone's heart; have your own heart broken.
I dunno what's the logic behind this but done and done.
6. Have a killer joke (you tell perfectly) ready to use for one of those awkward moments.
*Awkward silence* Why did the chicken cross the playground? *pause* To get to the other slide! *Even more awkward silence* Fine, I'll go do more research.
7. Use an alias for a day.
Can consider done. Last time in secondary school everybody had aliases. Mine was Jennifer and Yvonne coz I liked those 2 names. I still like the name Jennifer! =)
8. Dine unaccompanied in a nice restaurant.
I never understood how people could watch movie/club/eat in a restaurant alone so this will be hard to do.
9. Spend a whole pay packet on a pair of shoes.
Trust me. I'd love to! (I just hope Jace is not reading this if not wait she get more depressed.)
10. Break up with a man whom you know is bad for you; similarly, have a fling with a guy whom you know is bad for you!
My boyfriends have never been bad for me (At least, thats what I think!) but most of the flings definately were bad for me..
11. Travel somewhere by youself, be it a foreign country or just a weekend road trip.
Sounds enticing but totally out of the question unless I conquer my fear of ghosts. I'm a scaredy-cat! =x
12. Try something you always said you'd never do - like skydiving or eating escargot.
Well, I did go and get myself tanned didn't I? Lasted a whole freaking year too! In fact the tan lines can still faintly be seen! Argh. Never again. Escargots are YUMMY by the way.
13. Find out which friends you can and can't trust, and learn not to take it the hard way.
This year I found out who I can't trust. Twice. The first one I can let go coz it doesn't really matter to me, but the second one involves money so I think I am entitled to take it the hard way yes?
14. Volunteer for a charity you really care about.
Ok, I still have 7 years!
15. Quit a job without having another lined up.
Done!
16. Live by yourself for at least 6 months.
Never!! I'm scared and dependant.
17. Run (or at least train for) a marathon.
Yay, in the process of doing. Lately my friends all into jogging so I signed up for the KPE run with them. 5km only la, I think I really too long never exercise already. I went jogging with Gary on Mon, ran 1.5km and had stitches, and my thighs ached till Thurs. God, I really must practise if not I'll be crawling through the 5km.
18. Pay off your credit card debt/car loan.
*Calculates*Hmm, should be able to pay off my debts in 7 years time. Heh.
19. Visit a strip club.
Singapore got meh?! What's up with CLEO and these weird suggestions man.
20. Learn how to stand up for yourself whenever you receive poor customer service. You deserve better than that.
I think most of us have already done this. After all, we're Singaporeans. We don't take shit, we COMPLAIN!
21. Learn how to choose the perfect wine.
Boring. Not interested at all.
22. Have a favourite book that isn't chick-lit.
Done!
23. Forgive someone who wronged you; apologise to someone you've betrayed.
Forgiving doesn't mean you have to talk to the person right? Done.
24. Cook an impressive three-course meal for someone.
But I don't want to cause anyone to get food poisoning lehz. =P
25. Confess that (present or past) crush to a friend.
Even better, how 'bout a 17 year infatuation? I'll do it this Christmas, trying to work up the courage.
26. Buy a complete set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill and a lace bra.
Lace bra, I have. The other two, WHATEVER THE HELL FOR??!
27. Go to an art gallery and buy an original piece of art.
I already have an original piece of art. Its on my back.
28. Have a one-night stand (or more than one).
What's wrong with CLEO?! All these funny suggestions. How can they condone this?! *ahem* No comments.
29.Drink a cocktail in a posh bar in Paris.
Damn. I should have done this when I went there. Now I have to go again.
30. Drive a wickedly cool car even if you have to rent it.
My car will be cool. It will be totally pink.
Finally finished! Actually just did that for fun la. I'm not really gonna try to do all those things.. Except maybe throw a drink at a guy, lolz!
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