this.

the long lost love.

So here I am, in the middle of the night on a work day, unable to sleep again. Not sure if its the 3 cups of coffee I had or all the crazy, jumbled thoughts running through my head. So I decided to do something I haven't done for a long long time.. This.

Haven't been blogging as I don't like to write in detail about personal issues and the past few months have been an emotional turmoil for me. Guess the dust has finally kinda settled.. But yet I still have this unsettling feeling that something is not right. I just realized how much of an indecisive person I am; always second-guessing myself and having conflicted emotions.

I feel like I'm suddenly not really the person I was and not someone I'd wanna be. Sigh. I don't wanna lose myself. Anyway, just wanted to do this short rant to connect abit with something I truly love. Write a little and take comfort in it. My thoughts are all messed up, so sorry if the post is incoherent as well.

On a side note, I've been wanting to change my blog skin AND blog more often (I know I've been saying that for ages)! Hopefully I'll get some motivation to do it soon!

Just another (sun)day..

Not sure if its the weather. Or the waking up late. Or missing church. Or the you I don't wanna think of. Or the uncertainty of what to do with my life. Or knowing that I have no discipline yet not changing. Or the loneliness that creeps in on days like these. Or the fact that I should grow up but I don't want to. Or thinking of the upcoming busy week ahead at work.

Or all of the above.

But I just feel super emo today and I hate feeling this way. Time to exercise and get some endorphins to make myself happy again! Tomorrow will be a better day! And I will work towards being a better person.

new year, old habits.

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!

So, instead of my yearly post about resolutions and what I'm gonna achieve this year, I decided to post about stuff that I ALREADY did!

I realize I've been reading and blogging less over the past year and I totally blame that on all the addictive k-dramas! I decided to stop procrastinating and start doing something TODAY, so I..

1) Cleared my room. Okay, maybe just one small section. And I might've just shifted my stuff elsewhere. But at least i have a small area which looks neat now!

2) Read.. A magazine. Still counts, I don't care. I've learnt a lot of life lessons by reading CLEO okay? Don't judge me! :x

3) Blogged! Will try to revamp my entire blog soon and update more often so that I won't forget my passion.

Okay.. To be honest there's really a lot I wish I managed to do last year. Like quit smoking and start studying and saving. But I'm happy that I managed to sustain the exercise routine and cut down on clubbing/drinking though.

They say it takes 21 days for something to become a habit, but they forgot to mention how much discipline is required just to pass that 21 long days.

Gonna end this post with my brother's tweet. So proud of him for being positive and grateful! Yes, 2012 was a good year and may 2013 be even better!