it's happening again!! i can't sleep. went to mc cafe to chill with cammie just now.. triggered alot of memories and stuff. argh. i've been trying to sleep since 230am.. now i think it's pointless. have to 'wake up' for work in 90mins time. fuck. tomorrow no need to go out already..
i realised.. i was unreasonable.. at times. i was impulsive. i wasn't understanding enough. i'm sorry to you if you ever see this. but i'm still not sorry for breaking all contact with you. just so you know.. and maybe feel happy about it.. i hurt. very deeply.. i thought it was gone but apparently not. i feel lost at times still. especially at night.
god. i hate night. i dunno why during the day i can be so bloody tired and at night i. just. can't. fucking. sleep. hah. there were thousands of things running through my head while i was trying to sleep and now.. my mind is totally blank. great..
ok.. updates SOON people. i'm so sorry for not giving proper entries. i'll just shut up and stop whining k.. i think i'm becoming like one of those irritating people who just go on and on every entry about how sad they are and how fucked up their life is blah blah blah. i'm SORRY. will try to stop. haha. think i'm mad lah please don't ban my blog! =X
ps. i don't think i have a fucked up life. i still love my life. =)
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