i hate blogger

i've been trying to post for a long time already but got problem with the uploading so don't say i never blog!!=( ok fine i admit everytime i wanna blog i end up surfing for like hours and then by the time i wanna blog i'm too tired. but if the photos could be posted the entry would have been up!!some more it's an outdated entry!! argh. so irritating.. whatever.. i'm too tired to care. so.. i know i told u all i wanted to blog but hee.. not my fault! and i think by now most of you should realise that sometimes i type in small alphabets and sometimes i type with the proper capital letters and everything? if you didn't realise, when i use small everything is usually when i'm being emotional, while the proper typing is for when i feel like i have an entry thats good enough to be on print.. lolz.. ok.. need. sleep.

help

it's happening again!! i can't sleep. went to mc cafe to chill with cammie just now.. triggered alot of memories and stuff. argh. i've been trying to sleep since 230am.. now i think it's pointless. have to 'wake up' for work in 90mins time. fuck. tomorrow no need to go out already..

i realised.. i was unreasonable.. at times. i was impulsive. i wasn't understanding enough. i'm sorry to you if you ever see this. but i'm still not sorry for breaking all contact with you. just so you know.. and maybe feel happy about it.. i hurt. very deeply.. i thought it was gone but apparently not. i feel lost at times still. especially at night.

god. i hate night. i dunno why during the day i can be so bloody tired and at night i. just. can't. fucking. sleep. hah. there were thousands of things running through my head while i was trying to sleep and now.. my mind is totally blank. great..

ok.. updates SOON people. i'm so sorry for not giving proper entries. i'll just shut up and stop whining k.. i think i'm becoming like one of those irritating people who just go on and on every entry about how sad they are and how fucked up their life is blah blah blah. i'm SORRY. will try to stop. haha. think i'm mad lah please don't ban my blog! =X

ps. i don't think i have a fucked up life. i still love my life. =)

(post)world cup fever

Can't eat, can't sleep, wake up at 3am every night and have nightmares about the Zidane head-butting incident? Lolz. This entry is for those who just can't get enough of the World Cup 2006 which ended last Mon.. I wanted to blog so many things out but I realised pictures say it so much better. Plus I kinda forgot what were the many things 'coz I've been delaying this entry. =x

This is the best part of the Portugal vs Holland game which I blogged about earlier. Check out Deco's face.. So blur, so cute!! And the coach damn pissed.. Very super funny!


And then there's the one involving my droolsome Ronaldo and the cutely childish and hot-tempered Rooney..

Did you catch the wink??? That meanie! Even though I love him but still.. To bully his own team mate.. Tsk tsk..

Finally, the head-butting incident that made the finals end in a very big way..

Poor Zidane.. He seems like such a nice guy.. Apparently lip readers had been hired to find out what Materazzi said to rile him and after going through thousands of intepretations, I have concluded that this is what that asshole said.. " Hold on, wait, that one's not for a nigger like you. We all know you are the son of a terrorist whore. So just fuck off. " Wouldn't you have head butted him? Maybe a kick in the balls would've been better!

Super funny clip.. Especially near the end..

Who says soccer is not fun?? You've got lots of drama, fights, speculations, hunks.. All that's missing is some love.. Now if only I could photoshop Ronaldo and Deco in some kinda passionate embrace.. LOLZ. I know I'm sick. But.. What's this?

Maybe soon I might just get my wish..

Anyway, back to soccer.. Its a conspiracy to get people to spend money! I lost a total of $320 on bets and I know people who actually lost more! And don't say bets.. People spend money on the channel, the tidbits you munch on while watching it(another conspiracy to get you fat), the sms-es you excitedly send everytime there's a goal, the calls you make to bet illegally.. And many other things which I can't recall now already.. That's the irritating thing about postponing an entry. I forget everything. Which is what I have to do again. Wanted to blog about where I've just been to but will do that.. soon.

Most videos and pictures courtesy of xialanxue.blogspot.com . =)

super happy~~

i juz had a nice longgg bath n i'm.. sober!!lolz..almost i tink. i'm so happy i finally went to rush after ages!!!!!!!!!!!!!!happy happy happy!!even though i saw many many bungs there.. dunno why suddenly they like techno?lolz..even though many many memories came back.. i miss u.. i miss u so much.. but u wouldn't know it. i wonder if i'd ever see u again. talk to u again. hold u again. probably not..

but i'm still happy!!!!coz everyone was there!!!everyone important.. especially my sweetheart who i haven't seen for so blloody long! dancing together with her really made me remember the times. brought me a couple of yrs back. when i still had u. but still.. i'm happy! even my darling elaine n jen were there!! fun fun!! omg. i forgot how fun it is to dance to techno. no more phuture! lolz. rnb is nothing compared to techno! so i was high. but happy high. not sad. no more sadness for me!

ok.. special thanx to elaine n jen for tking care of me n of coz kenny for sending me home.. my sweetheart nv tk care of me! but thats coz she was high too. haha.. relli like last time lehz. omg.. i like!!!! i love love love rush!!

lolz. someone challenged me not to reply his sms or ans his calls for one week. lolz.. darling.. u dun noe wat ur missing.. >_< n juz in case ur reading this.. i regret dat sms! omg. so paiseh.. cant believe wat i sms-ed u.. shy. hah. talk to u in one wks time k? lolz. i tink i'm gg mad..

kk.. all the updates plus entries i promised coming soonnnnn.. plus a hell load of pix!! god.. i've got a super big headache.. lolz.

why am i blogging?

I feel like crying. I can't believe I turned down Pirates of the Carribean and Phuture to go sleep and now I'm sitting in front of my comp obviously not sleeping. This is fucked up. Waiting for a one hour bluetooth installation so that I can try and upload pictures. Argh. Might as well update you all while I'm at it.

As you can probably tell from my last entry, I went to Phuture on Wed. Drank 2 Flaming Lambos at one go and then went to vomit awhile later. Haha.. I know I know, I'm lousy.. I heard enough of that already. It was so chaotic that day lor!! Kept changing venues.. First MOS, then Dbl O, then finally Phuture.. Sms-ed till low batt. Finally the people who went were Elaine, Jeff, Mich and her bf and sis, Sherlyn and Jasmine. Happening? Lolz. Met our usual share of assholes. Phuture is getting boring.. I want Rush!!

Hmm, think there's something wrong with Blogger. Trying to upload photos but can't? So no pics for you today!Anyway before Phuture I met Hazel for her advanced birthday treat at Heeren NYDC.. That girl is such a darling!! She went HK and bought stuff for me!! Love her. ;P

That night when I went home I couldn't sleep lor.. There's something freakishly wrong with my sleeping time. So I didn't sleep and decided to go rebond my hair on impulse. Haha.. Ok, not impulse as in I didn't plan to rebond it but just that I didn't expect I would have done it on that day. Keke.. Then went to watch movie with my PTS. He lucky right.. Got the honour to be the first one to see my rebonded hair! Lolz. Hmm, I think I should explain the whole PTS thing. It's only part time 'coz.. I don't want anymore commitment and he already has other commitment.. If you get what I mean. Am I a bitch? Probably. Am I gonna get hurt? Maybe. But I don't care. Because I rather be upset over a guy, any guy, than a girl. I just want all the pain of the past washed away and I'll do anything (almost) to achieve that. Just for the record, it's working. =)

Today went for my brand training! Seems that purple is the colour of the year. All the fragrances seem to be purple.. Hypnose, Ralph Hot, Pure purple.. BUT, turquoise is hot too! Ralph Lauren came out with this new fragrance called Pure Turquoise (I know, like what's with all the PURE?) and some magazine was quoted as saying turquoise is the new BLACK. Hmm.. Whatever. Pink rules! Lancome will be coming out with a new fragrance called Miracle Forever and I bet it will be pink!

Met up with the girls after training, went shopping and then to our usual place, Paragon Coffee Bean. Jas and Cammie were like so tempting me to go Phuture!! Somemore it's Cammie's big debut. Hah. Wonder how they are. Dammit I should've just gone lahz.. My bloody installation install up till now still haven't finish!! KNS.

phuture.

sweaty bodies, drunk people, fights, smoke, loud music, non-stop dancing and lots of supper.

what more can a person ask for?

i'm becoming one of THEM.

HELP!

next one MUST be at rush!!!

;)

recover from heartbreak like a man

This was one of the articles featured in this month's CLEO. It's mostly common sense lah actually, most girls probably do the same thing.

1. Relish your new freedom.
Do the things that you couldn't do when you were with the other half. Hmm. Actually this is just leading to the 4th point.

2. Have a quick fix.
Omg! CLEO encourages people to have ONS!! Naughty.. But it probably works. Not that I have tried it of 'coz. =X

3. Double your poison.
Their poison means a drink but I guess you can always substitute it with panadols, sleeping pills, cough mixture, etc.. I'm kidding.. Just stick to drinks k? I've doubled, tripled and quadrupled it but this one DOES NOT work at all. So it's a no no to getting drunk 'coz you'll end up doing stupid things you regret the next day. Of 'coz, getting just a little tipsy is a different story..

4. Play up the single status.
Done. And as far as I know, nearly everybody does too.. But nobody does it better than a certain someone I know.. (I think most of you know who it is ;P)

5. Bend and stretch.
Exercise. It's hard. I'm lazy. Jace!! Pull me to the gym leh! =x (For those of you who don't know, exercising produces endorphins which will make you happy. Didn't you watch Legally Blond??! And of 'coz when you lose weight you'll be happier!)

6. Bin the reminders.
This is the first thing I usually do. Get rid of photos, belongings, anything belonging to the other person. But it's hard when everything reminds you of the other person doesn't it? And I cannot bear to dump the sketchbook which we took so long to do and Stitch.. But since I managed to throw away the pig Alex gave me, hmm, maybe sooner or later.

7. Take the low road.
This basically means, bitch about the other party. This is something everybody does but it doesn't always work. Sometimes you just end up feeling worse.. And the goal that you want is indifference, not hate, remember?

I wrote this actually wanting to proclaim there's a better way than that to get over a break up but seriously? I think there is no fixed way to get over it. I guess everyone has their own way. I thought I had mine. Oh ya! It was GO OUT EVERYDAY AND NIGHT TILL YOU'RE DAMN TIRED THEN GO SLEEP STRAIGHTAWAY. And it was working damn well till nobody wanted to go out today and I surfed aimlessly for hours and saw my bloody yahoo photos. What the hell man.

On my way to Jas' cousins house at Holland V last week I got lost and passed by her mum's house twice. It's just.. Alot of memories. I miss her mum and sis. It's sad that I won't be able to see them anymore. It's sad that I had to make the decision not to be friends. It's the only way I know..

So all of you who didn't wanna meet me tonight better feel guilty!! Lolz.. It's amazing how long I can use the computer without even doing what I wanted to do in the first place. Which was my auctions and blogging about the world cup. And then can blog all this.. Am I pro? >_<

So much for me not wanting to blog about my personal life..

italy rocks!!!

italy won the world cup!!!!!!!!!!!

will post more when i'm less tired.

meanwhile, here's something to keep you people entertained..

(conversation between my mum and bro)

mum: italy and france draw then how??? nobody win the world cup?

bro: ya nobody win then they just throw the cup away.

okok, not funny i know. fine. i said i'm tired right. somemore tired still had to go down and meet SOMEBODY lor. bleahz.

p.s. i very power right can find techno world cup song???(even though its dedicated to england) lolz. =x

day of the dares

Wanted to blog about this the moment I got home that day but by the time my photos finished uploading I was SHAGGED! Went to meet the girls on Mon evening 'coz Mich Sng came back from Aussie!! It was like so secondary school. Sat at McCafe, crapped, played bridge.. Fun fun! Then.. I dunno why this always happens when Mich is around but we always end up playing stupid but fun games and doing stupid but entertaining(for the people around us) dares.

Dare No. 1
Jasmine and Shiwan were the first suay ones. We did it two by two so that the people who kena won't so paiseh lahz. So.. They had to french. Lolz.. Boring lor!! I frenched Shiwan like dunno how many times already!! =x We recorded it on video but mine is freaking dark so I won't bother to put it up. I jealous, Jas frenched my dear! Lolz.

Dare No. 2
Next to kena was Angele and me. Jace SMARTLY came up with the sick idea of making us fondle each other's boobs!! Haha.. But in secondary school all of us used to smack each other's boobs anyway so it wasn't that bad. It was caught on video too but I shall spare all of you the agony of seeing that. Or should I say I won't give you all the pleasure? Hee.

Dare No. 3
Shiwan again. This time round with Kenneth, Mich's boyfriend. Sounds nice right??? Michelle and Kenneth. Hehe. They had to bang the dustbin loudly while singing.. I think the people around us thought we were all mad and just decided to ignore us by then.

Dare No. 4
Jasmine and Angele. This wasn't really a dare for them but more like for Jace. Haha.. 'Coz she was the smart person who came up with most of the dares, they decided to get even by each biting one side of her ear!! And even though that might seem like something trivial, trust me, it was probably hell for her. I still remember when we were in Sec 2 and not very close, all I did was touch her hair and she cried. Traumatising experience sia! For me. Hah.. Here are the pics..

See what I mean?? Check out her pained expression man. I mean, Jas also bit as if her life depended on it lahz and Jace said she teared 'coz it was pain, but I think she was probably just upset that her ear got dirtied.. Poor girl.. But it was fun lahz.. All of us together again, really like secondary school.. We miss LJS! And the bubble tea shop that we always used to play bridge at. *sigh* Those were really super fun times.

I look stoned. Look at the smoke surrounding us.

Went to watch soccer at Jeff's house on Tuesday and I sadly lost. Those damn Italians don't wanna score earlier! After that I went to my PTS house! Hee. He is so idiotically cute. And it's all his fault that I can't sleep now 'coz I screwed my sleeping time that day! Hmph. But it's ok lahz since he so sweetly accompanied me during my break time. =)

Wed went to Phuture with Mich, her bf, Jas and all her relatives.. Lolz.. Too many to mention. Her super cute bro deserves a mention though.. Haha.. Had so much fun that I stayed there to watch the Portugal match and I lost again! Argh. (Elaine!! Sorry I didn't go meet you guys.. I was a little high..) And fact established.. I like guys! Lolz.. I'm in deep shit.

Then just now went McCafe chill with Cammie and Mich. Fun fun.. Girls talk.. Until my PTS came.. Hehe.. Then we just had fun making him shuffle. =x And Mich taught us a new game called 'Asshole Daidee'. Anyone interested in learning? Don't worry it doesn't involve the ass in any way.. Keke.. Really have to go try to sleep now.. Will blog about the Batam trip soon.

smile. coz i updated.

I was just surfing through some of my friends blogs and none of them updated!! Now I know how you all feel when you stop by and there's no updates. Except that you all probably just feel ten times worse. =) So being the nice person that I am I have decided to UPDATE even though I'm just 2 and a half hours away from boarding a cab which will take me to the airport. For work.

For the past week I have really lived up to my reputation as a movie freak. Lolz.. Watched 6(?) movies.. There's nothing left for me to watch except Superman Returns so those of you dying to watch a show with me take note k? Hee.. I found the new love of my life while watching The King and the Clown..

I know he looks girlish (Actually he looks like Vanness, but then Vanness also.. Nevermind). I dunno why I seem to have a thing for girly guys. And guyish girls? Lolz.. I went to my ex-colleagues son's birthday chalet just now and saw this small bung there.. Haha.. I know.. The way I say it is as if she's an insect right? Why are there so many of them around nowadays?!! I wish I could just exterminate them! Not that I have anything against them except they make me think. I mean.. I was fine and everything till she came up to her girlfriend, who was talking to me, and kissed her. I don't know how to describe what I felt but it certainly wasn't happiness.

When I broke up with Alex, I didn't think of him everytime I saw a guy.. 'Coz there are so many of them. But butches.. There are few and yet many enough to affect me once in awhile. Irritating. Think you all probably don't understand what the fuck I'm talking about. And then I started wondering if I actually liked bungs more than guys. Hmm. It's just 2 different kinds of feelings. But cannot be la.. I still like guys. I saw my future husband in church just now. Hah. So don't start gettting worried.. Ok, enough rubbish. Being in a girls school really screws with your head sometimes.. Nevermind the fact that I've been out of there for 5 years.. Thats not the point.

The other show I MUST mention is Just My Luck. It's actually a chick flick so I watched it with the right people! Actually, it would be a nice show to watch with your bf/gf also 'coz after the show I just felt like kissing somebody. Lolz. Someone with extremely good luck perhaps? So.. Basically what I'm trying to say is that watch it with anyone and it will still be nice. Talking about luck..

I broke my very nice limited edition Ettusais mirror!!! *sobz* 7 years of bad luck?? I don't really believe in superstitions just super sad 'coz its limited edition and that means I can never get it again!!! Maybe I should go and beg the salesgirl to find one more for me but I think she gave me the last piece.. =(

On a happier note, I saw Mel Mel just now!! I missed that girl. Not long after I came home from the chalet Zi Chao called and told me Melissa was with him so I went to Simpang Bedok to eat supper with them and their two other friends.. We did so much catching up. Talked about KC again.. Really miss those days.. Really miss that school (even though it screwed me up. kinda.) I don't wanna be old and wrinkly! I don't wanna be 21!! *wails*