And the results are..

..aching legs, lack of sleep, tanner(!!!) skin and did I mention ACHING legs?! But I guess thats not the results you're interested in seeing..

Honestly, my timing sucks so bad that I should be ashamed to even put the results up but who cares? I definately don't!

I just think its cool that a piece of orange paper recorded my run timing!

What? At least I wasn't last! (Though I can't be sure how many people exactly there were, I know there were DEFINATELY people behind me!) =D

one of the most tiring days of my life

I shall keep my promise and blog for every comment I get.. But I'm so freaking tired! And I still have to blog TWO posts?! Owe you all one la ah! Hee.

Anyway, I MADE IT for the Nike Run!! So freaking proud of myself man! Slept for one hour and went.

The sea of red that greeted me when I reached there. So amazing la. Apparently 10000 people went according to Nike website, but I dunno if they meant the whole world or only Singapore coz although its a lot of red, it doesn't look like 10000 to me! (Ok, I just checked.. It was really 10000 JUST in Singapore! Cool!!)

Massage tents? I'm not very sure if people had to pay for this; I thought it was free but if it were then there'd be a fucking long queue and there wasn't, even after the run. Maybe its just some muscle relief thing only for injured people. (Checked. It WAS free massages! Damn.)

Free fruits and drinks! I was telling Jace she should just do her fav past time there. Just stand there and get free flow! LOL. Only 100 plus and water though.. But NEVER in my life have I loved 100 plus so much!!!

That small little orange paper thingy actually tells me my running time!! Cool or what?! I was just so amazed by everything..

Looking happy and excited but actually feeling crappy coz I slept so little and full coz I drank two glasses of milk thinking it would give me energy, only to realise it just makes me full. -.-

And the race starts! After 600m, I told Jace I wanna turn back and go home. LOL! Started to feel cramps and all.. After 2km, started to walk. And from there onwards, it was mostly walking.. Till we see our motivation!!!

DRINKS! Then we started running like dogs who haven't drank for ages! Other than that we just talked and laughed and did silly things like..

..Try to knock down all cups with one cup! LOL. Silly but fun.

My fav number!! I felt quite idiotic standing there taking pictures while everyone else was running in my direction, hence the non pose. But after that we saw two other girls taking photos as well so didn't feel like we were the only ones who could camwhore anywhere and everywhere!

Yay 9km! I loved reading the words on the board. All so inspiring and cute! Unlike the scary volunteers who kept screaming at us to 'jia you' and 'hurry up'.. They were intimidating! I purposely started walking whenever I was going to reach them so that I'd have the energy to run when they scream at me. =x If I was really shagged I might've punched them, or say what another girl said to them sarcastically," You come and join us run la!" But then again, most of them were nice and friendly.

Finally!! By that time my legs felt like jelly and I REALLY thought I was gonna sprain my ankle. Haha. When we reached the finish line they gave us a can of 100 plus (I think I drank at least one litre of 100 plus that day!) and a Nike Finisher wrist band, nothing fancy la. There was a concert but it was almost over by the time we finished. Lol. I just found my results online but will blog about that tomorrow..

We did it!! =D

RUN!

Ok, I decided to blog 2 posts at one go.. AND Jace is gonna kill me coz I officially have to wake up in like an hour's time for the Nike Run! YES I'm going for the NIKE TEN KM run. (Or maybe not, if I wake up and it's over.)

Jace tricked me into going! She said everyone's going and apparently everyone is Gary, her sis and her. Sigh. But anyway, it'll be an experience! Plus I paid for it already, so ya, anyone who sees this in one hour please call me! If nobody calls me it won't be my fault if I miss it. =x

I'm so tired la! Now its the same old question. Should I sleep or stay up? I might faint during the run if I stay up though.. And I'm super shagged! So, I guess..

goodnight.

my fav number ; my fav club!

SE7EN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is part of the reason I've been so busy.. Found a great new club thanks to Kelly!! Get ready for the photos..

The Place

One section is the games. Apparently they have the longest dart wall line up in Singapore.. It's fun!! They have THREE pool tables as well.

The dance floor! What I love about it? Platform right in the centre!! ;P

The Drinks

Chivas at $138!!! Heaven! Can't beat Rebel la but I have free entry here!! Got a membership card on the first night.. =D Last I heard MAC CALLEN is $138 as well!! Can't wait for later.. Hehe. Yes I'm going later!

The People

Met old friends, new friends and long lost friends there.. FUN FUN FUNNNN!!

The Infamous Scallop Congee

He brought me there, I brought her along, she told the whole world about it! So ya la, Eric is the one who got everyone hooked onto the yummilicious scallop congee at 126! Cheap and good and not sinful!

These are just some pictures of the 2 out of many many nights that I went to se7en.. Sadly, I heard that they gonna change the concept to live band. BOOOOOOOOOO~ So I'm gonna club there every week till that happens!

Cya at se7en!

P.S. They really should pay me for advertising for them man!

tag time~

yes i know i haven't been blogging alot lately and i'm sorry.. this few months have been hectic like crazy for me!! what with the school and work and partying!! but also, i realised that i don't really have much motivation to blog though i always always think of stuff i wanna blog about..

coz it seems like nobody reads my blog anymore judging by my sad lonely tagboard. yet when i check my blog stats it states otherwise! so people, if you actually come and read my blog pls tag!!!

i've decided that i'll blog once for every tag i get a day, so tag tag TAG! =D

[gossip girl] rocks!!!

*sigh* i'm just loving it so much i need some place to rave about it!!! love blair and chuck!!!! starting to love dan alot.. LOVE hilary duff!!! the show is awesome la!

i just watched season 3 episode 4 and b&c are so sweet can?!!!!!!! i wan a chuck bass!! *sighhhhh* i don't think i'll ever stop liking bad boys.. =x

its coz of shows like these la! makes us girls think that they can and will actually change.. but sadly, most of the time its just not true.

anyway i'm out of point and just raving.. super random.. but i <3 chuck bass!!! for those of you who are dying to watch it,here's the link!~

xoxo

you know you love me

life is gooooooooooood!!!!!!!!!

I'm totally loving my life now! Haha coz I found a great club!!! Wanted to blog a long post about that but its my bedtime so will save it for another time.. Today my post is just gonna be about the GREAT dinner I had at Long Beach with my colleagues. It's abit overdue so will keep it short and simple.

The reason for the dinner was coz the team actually hit last month's target so my boss treated! And I was actually very lucky to be included since I wasn't there last month.. Have to thank my manager for all the photos coz now I'm using a sucky phone which has a spoilt camera and she actually helped me to take the pictures.

First up we had this garlic squid appetiser which was so good coz I was hungry and it was GARLIC! Didn't take a picture of that coz it didn't occur to me to blog about the dinner till I saw..

...the lobster appetiser!!!

Oh it was in small servings but you know how they say good things come in small packages? SO TRUE. I'm crazy about lobsters so I was drooling the minute I saw it. Somemore had to like keep my cool coz all new colleagues but inside I was jumping for joy la.. I never ate anything like that before, not even at weddings.

The end result

Next we had this..

... which i initially thought was shark's fin but it turned out to be curry(?) prawns which I'm sure chilli lovers would, well, love but I don't eat chilli so just ate the prawns.

Then there was fish..


And after that we had chilli crab with mantou and noodles and duck which were good but nothing spectacular so didn't take photos.


By the time dessert came, all of us were so full but the dessert looked so special I couldn't resist it!




It was some sort of coffee pudding with dry ice underneath. Very light so we didn't feel jelak after eating it.



And that about sums up what was one of the best meals in my 24 years. Hahaha. Mainly coz of the lobster dish. *sigh*



I'm gonna sleep now. Hope I dream of it! =D


P.S. My birthday is in 11 days!!!!

mich : the new and revised edition

yes yes i'm finally back! i'm sorry been lazy and REALLY busy this time around. ok, just short updates coz i'm normal now and got work early tml!!

i quit prudential.

coz i don't think i have enough discipline to be a successful financial planner. i need a stable job that isn't too flexible. and of coz i looked for an office hour job to suit my school timing and, in jace's words, 'my other friends timings'. oh ya speaking of school..

i started sch at psb academy!

luckily my friend also happened to be in the same class as me so i don't have to worry about having no friends. haha. not that i was worried la. =x anyway, first lesson was boring and freaking easy! it was like ratio and fractions la! primary sch maths can! wasting my time. lolz. k la its prob just a refresher lesson. wait the next few lessons all damn hard then i'll just be kicking myself..

i got a normal day job!!!

this is like the BIGGEST change in my life la. first time ever having a full time office job.. nowadays i wake up at 7am on weekdays and sleep before 1.30am the night before!!! i don't club on wed anymore and i probably only can drink once a week! hahaha. crazy right?! my life is so sad and boring now!! hahaha. thats what i've been telling people. but thinking about it, my life is just boring la. definitely not sad. unless you count the fact that i'm probably gonna make the same mistake again.

oh ya! i watched [final destination 4] 3d just now and was reminded why i don't like watching 3d shows. coz the specs are annoying and you can't really see the colours on the screen clearly! anyway, things i learned from the show; don't go car wash, don't go swimming, don't use escalators, don't cross roads.. basically don't do anything la! wow. that so fits into my boring life now..

its 1am and its my bedtime. =(

pet society is getting addictive!!!

First, they introduced planting to the game and i got addicted to it again.. Now, they actually have fishing!!! And i'm hooked!!! Hahaha..

For those people who were confused at first like me, it's actually really easy.

1. Go to the pond in the centre of the village.
2. Choose your bait. It's really funny 'coz the fishes in Pet Society eat ANYTHING from ice cream sundaes to milk to bones(I caught a puppyfish with my bone!).
3. Click your pet once to cast the rod.
4. Once the fish bites, click and hold your pet to reel in the fish.
5. If the fish struggles(there will be ripples in the water), let go and click again after it stops struggling if not it will escape with your bait!

Ok, my friends must now be thinking why I am blogging about this in the morning instead of sleeping. I just went to Pet Society to check out my plants for awhile then realised they have this fishing thingy.. And it took me like quite awhile and alot of baits to finally get the hang of it so I thought I should just teach the other people who wanna play la!

Plus.. I'm trying to occupy myself as much as possible so that I won't have to think of things I don't wanna think about?

And.. I wanted to do a small blog post ma!

So.. I'm gonna go sleep now. Will update soon! =)

everyone wishes for some MAGIC now and then

DAMMIT!!! I should have waited just one day before buying my Samsung Omnia.. Coz I went to the Nuffnang website the next day and saw that they have this blogging competition about HTC Magic, the new hp from HTC. Curious, I went to check it out and it looks soooo good!! I guess now I just have to try winning it instead..

The very first hp I ever had was the very common Nokia 3210. It looked like this..

BORING and bulky! To be fair to it, it was one of the first generation phones so obviously it looked ugly. Plus I changed my casing to pink!!! So it did look a little nicer than the above picture.

This is HTC Magic.

Sleek and sexy!!! *drools* I want!!! Available in white and black.

3210 had speed dial. Which was of totally no use to me. I never ever used that function in ANY phone before. If you call someone so often that they have to be on speed dial, you'd remember the number of that person right?? Maybe I just have good memory. Heh.

Magic on the other hand, has Smart Dialer. Smart Dialer lets you call people in whatever way you think, by either dialing their phone number or by dialing the first few letters of their name. Perfect. No more scrolling through your phone book anymore!

The only entertainment I got from my dear old 3210 was the game Snake. I loved Snake but once the snake reached its maximum length and the high score was reached, I had ZERO entertainment.

With Magic you can surf the web with 3.5G network connection and Wi-Fi technology(they have the multiple windows function!), take photos with its 3.2megapixel camera, listen to mp3s and watch videos!

And the best thing of all is.. It's powered by Android!! Ok, I know most of you have never heard about it before but soon everyone's gonna be talking about it so let me tell u abit more so that you won't be the only suaku one..

Android is a mobile operating system developed by Google(only the most used search engine ever!) so naturally, it provides common Google services such as mail and search. Other than that, the home screen is fully customizable and lets you put music, widgets and applications. Speaking of which, they have this thing called Android Market where you can discover and install applications and games from their ever-growing selection.

One application I really really like is the Google Latitude, which allows you to keep track of the physical locations of your contacts!!! How cool is that! I can stalk people all day!!!! And for those who are attached, now you don't ever have to hear another lie from your partner about where they are!! Just awesome.

Go check it out!

Discover Magic with HTC Magic. www.htc.com/sea

anymore?

I tried to finish the Bintan post but my updates kept disappearing!! So i got fed up and decided to use my bro's laptop instead of my old laggy comp to blog but then I realised I could upload photos with my time instead so the Bintan post is yet again pushed back.. Hehe.

Nonetheless, I realised I haven't been updating much so here's a short update..

A few months ago, my friends were talking about this 'anymore' place at Geylang and me being me, thought it was a nightclub. Turned out it's actually their term for the illegal gambling tables there which I've actually heard of before la but never went to check it out before coz I sometimes lose my head when gambling..

Anyway, I WENT TODAY! Haha. I thought it would be like tended by ah bengs and abit like the underground gambling dens in movies kind but its actually just a table with a 'da/siao' plastic mat thingy on it. Ok, I'm so bad at describing la. I actually wanted to take a picture to blog about it but my friend said wait the guy whack me all.. LOL. Somemore they are not ah bengs can! They are like Indians/Thais/mostly foreigners la..

So I played(minimum bet $10).. And won $100!!! But I spent $35 on fags and supper then human nature took over and I wanted to win more so went back there and lost the remaining $60! LOL. Wanted to continue but luckily my friend talked me into going home..

Actually the first time I played and was on a winning streak I suddenly thought, "What if those guys suspect I got supernatural powers? Like the guy in [Push] or Hiro Nakamura?" Lol. Then when I was walking away after winning I was so scared they whack me la!

I asked my friend how they earn money like that and he said people would always keep going back. Which is true la. You win, you wanna win more. You lose, you wanna win it all back. *Sigh* Humans.

Definately must have self control the next time I go back. =x

words speak softer than actions

you know how i hate people who are overly emo and self-pitiful, esp whenthe things they are emo over is their own fault? i think i'm becoming like that! the emo part la, not the self-pity part. i dun feel sorry for myself at all, juz alot of frustration and disappointment.

i dun wanna blog much about the issue coz i dun really like blogging about personal stuff but i'm just so annoyed at myself!!!! arghhhh. i need to meet my girls for a bitching/whining session soon!!

okok, i must keep in mind what eric told me; i'm lucky. if not i will forget to be grateful for all the things i have. anyway, in other news.. I'M FINALLY GOING TO STUDY!! there. i said it. so now i can't back out can i? still deciding on which school but most prob kaplan i guess. i feel like i'm making alot of impulsive decisions these few days but i guess this is a good one right?

k la will update soon.. bintan post soon coz mostly voted yes.. haha. good night world.

as promised in fb

That's facebook for the benefit of people like Cammie and KJ.. LOL. Ok, anyway, I said on fb that if I couldn't sleep I'd blog a long long post so here I am.. Think I've been neglecting you guys actually.

But before I start PLEASE PLEASE help me vote on whether I should complete my post on the Bintan trip anot.. Even if you don't care just anyhow vote 'coz I took ages to put the damn poll up on my blog! It's below this post so help me decide k! Thanks. =)

Anyway, I think part of the reason I couldn't sleep was 'coz my stomach was making so much noise!! So I just ate an apple pie that I grabbed from Mac after chilling with my friend just now and now I'm so contented! Ok, I know thats totally redundant and boring stuff to blog about but I did promise a LONG post so have to talk nonsense abit right? Lolz.

K la actually just wanted to show you all HOW MUCH I ATE on Sat!!!

You see those plates of beef? I probably ate around 8-10 of that plus some lamb and pork among other things!! LOL. I was so sure that I'd put on 2kg the next day but I didn't!! I realised why when I read CLEO yesterday.. 'Coz beef is protein and it increases your metobolic rate!! Woohoo~ But of 'coz too much will still gain weight in the long run la. I think. Don't really wanna try. Aiya, actually the picture doesn't really reveal the true amount of food we ate.. 'Coz it's kinda small but I lazy to go upload again in a bigger format..

Oh ya.. People who went were Jace and Gary, Jas and Minghui, Shiwan and Zhiwei, Angele and me. See the connection? Yes, 3 couples plus Angele and me!! Lucky she came lor if not I think I wouldn't even have gone! Hai. More on that later/another time.

Gluttons!

After that we went to the $10 club ktv at Chinatown. Yup, the name is really $10 club! Lol. But it was good la! $10 for 3 hours, free flow drinks PLUS one bowl of sharksfin!! Of coz it's those cheapskate pasar malam fake kind la but still.. Worth it lor! Some more the sound system not bad..

This pic was taken in the dark ktv with Zhiwei's ISO camera. I still dunno what ISO is but I'm guessing it means MAGIC!! Power la. The ktv was so damn dark, the camera didn't have any flash, and look at the image it captured! So bright and clear! I'm still kinda amazed. But apparently they say it costs alot alot of money, so ya.. I guess its meant to do that. Haha.

I'm so hooked to this new song that my meanie friend Yuanda intro-ed.. It's called [Xia Yu Tian] by Lara. But nobody sang it that day probably 'coz its too new or like Eric said, it's too hard to sing.. Got another song [Huai Ren] by Ah Bin also very nice! But also nobody sing. Lol.

So after KTV the rest kinda wanted to go home but me being me, wanted to go anywhere but home 'coz it was only 1am!! On a SAT NIGHT!!! So they suggested going to Club St to check out this atas bar but it was closed so we walked further down and found another atas bar called Savanh Bar. We were contemplating whether to go in anot when the friendly boss(?) told us there were 1-for-1 beers and that was all my alcoholic friends needed to hear to make the decision. LOL. I swear I so did not wanna drink la. 'Coz last Thurs I went BQ and drank 2 barrels with 3 other people and that was enough to make me not wanna drink for at least a week or two. Some more its beer leh!!! If its Martell it'd probably be a different story la.. Did I mention how much I miss Martell?? *sigh* Anyway, I digress..

So we went in and the decor was awesome!!! Found out that the place is actually a part of the IndoChine group. Nice music(they played R&B), nice ambience, cosy layout AND the toilets were so classy!! I got up to go to the toilet and when I saw it I immediately headed back to go borrow a camera to take a picture of it! LOL. Then all the girls followed me back to the toilet to check it out. Damn funny la..


This is where we were seated. It's actually on a platform and its more cosy than it looks. You all should go check it out yourselves to see what I mean.


Cam-whoring at the entrance of the toilet. People who saw us probably thought we were crazy or drunk.

The nice nice toilets! But these photos really don't do justice to the actual thing so go visit and see!!! Best thing is they absorb the service charge and GST!! It was $13 for a pint of Heineken but we thought plus plus will come up to $15+ but it was nett! So counting the 1-for-1 in, each of us only paid like $6.50 for a pint which is dirt cheap by Singapore standards la!! Ok, they should so pay me for the amount of advertising I'm doing for them.. LOL.

Actually got some more pictures but my friends haven't posted them on fb yet so I don't think I will post it la.. I tried searching the web for nicer photos but like their webby pix also not very nice.

Ok, that's it for Sat's post! Wanted to blog a little bit more but I think I shall leave that for the next time. ;)

HELP ME DECIDE!!!

I took 45 mins just learning how to get the damn poll in my post and it still looks abit off but i don't care anymore la!! Just help me vote! LOL.

time for a change?

-I'm finally out of that big evil hole of darkness!!! But you know whats the most ironic part? No, I didn't get alcohol poisoning (though that would really have been ironic).. But Zi Chao asked me to go work at 12th Element (the new Bottoms Up)!!! Its like whenever I quit one pub then another pub comes along.. LOL. But this time I was quite firm to stick to my decision of not working at another pub ever again. Though I have to admit I was kinda tempted.

And then, the next day I actually went to church after not going for one month plus!! So quite happy la.. Really trying to make changes for the better which includes quitting smoking, minimising drinking, working harder, eating healthily and exercising regularly!!! Haha. That was quite a mouthful. I guess that would be anyone's perfect lifestyle?

But I didn't really think much of the healthy parts of those changes till yesterday when I felt pain in my chest. Which I have felt a few times before but not so often in one day! So i started to feel scared and didn't really dare to sleep 'coz you know.. They say that most of the time you will die if you get a heart attack when you sleep. Heh.

So I went to CGH just now and waited 2 freaking hours to see the doctor, who looked like he just graduated from uni and knows shit about medicine. Firstly, during the whole 10mins I was in his room, 4 people walked in to talked to him and he walked out once. Secondly, he was really talkative and trying to be funny-lame which would be sorta endearing IF he actually knew his stuff and not just doing it to cover up for his imcompetency. Thirdly, he just said I probably just have muscle pull and nothing else. Then he said but it's only 99% confirm. But thats not the bad part yet! I felt that it was a total waste of time and money so i decided to make it worth it and asked him to prescribe me some Duramine. AND YOU KNOW WHAT?? He was like er ah uh.. Then he asked me why i wanted SLEEPING PILLS. And the most laughable part was that he had 2 computers and he actually went to Google on the one that had internet access!!! But before he could google it, I told him it's an appetite suppressant and he said they don't prescribe that in CGH but i bet he probably doesn't really know! *sigh* If something happens to me please ask my parents to sue the doctor!!!

So I'm going for a full body check up in 2 weeks time just to make sure there's really nothing wrong with me. Then it's also time for all those changes.. I didn't smoke today!!! Haha. Sometimes i feel that it is hard to just live life decently and the right way but then again, I still think that there are little things that make it all worth it.. =D

the same old problem!!

I. CAN'T. SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh. juz when i decided i really wanna work hard, this new bout of insomnia hits me. sumtimes i really think that i juz think too much.

now i dunno whether i should sleep and risk waking up late or not sleep and risk being tired.. and i have 4 appts tml!!!!!!!!

i actually wanted to continue the bintan post but my bro's lappy no mouse so very hard to organise the photos.. and do u all think i should still do it? after all its been so long already.. but if i dun do also like abit waste of efforts coz i did halfway liao. or at least 1/4! =P

dunno dunno dunno.. how?! i think this is the most informal and not nice post that i've ever blogged. almost impossible to understand. lolz.

7 reasons to stop getting drunk

7. It hurts you internally.

Liver failure anyone?

6. It hurts you externally.

Everytime I'm drunk I will end up with bruises the next day and not know how I got it. Today wasn't any different. I was removing my make-up in the morning and suddenly realised there was a blue black on my nose bridge and above my right eye. I vaguely remember falling down but don't remember where. Just glad I didn't break my nose.

5. It makes you fat.

Work at bottoms up, put on 5kg. I quit, LOST 5kg. Work at shebang, put on 5kg. Anyone else see a pattern here? Alcohol is proven to assist weight gain. All the calories!

4. It makes you lose control.

I could actually go on and on about this point but lets just say i don't like crying for nothing. Maybe it wasn't nothing but then that would mean I was being emo which I hate even more.

3. It makes you do embarrassing things.

Drunk sms-es aren't exactly something to be proud of, among other things.

2. It burdens the people around you.

Who likes taking care of a drunk person? I know it's hard thats why I appreciate the people who still do it.

1. It's a Sat night and I'm home!

Coz I'm too shagged from being drunk last night plus not having enough sleep!! This is enough reason to quit man.. I dunno when's the last time I was home on Sat night. *sigh*

a shopaholic post AGAIN!

I know I already raved about the [Confessions of a Shopaholic] movie coming out, but Nuffnang is giving free tix to the movie preview so here goes..

I know my friend is a shopaholic because she can walk for hours looking for bargain buys in the hottest climates(Jas), she splurges on clothes and bags from branded labels(Cammie), she loves to online shop(Angele), she goes crazy whenever there's a sale(more or less every one of us), she buys things on impulse, has tons of clothes accumulated over the years that she hasn't even worn yet and will spend her last dollar on shopping not caring about tomorrow's expenses(me, me and me!). Haha.

Here's proof of how we went mad shopping in Thailand..

Reasons that we're such shopaholics? Do girls seriously need reasons to shop? But still, let me name a few.. Retail therapy is the best kind of therapy! Shopping makes me feel happier even if I'm sad. Shopping helps people to lose weight.. All that walking endlessly and sometimes forgetting to eat. Shopping contributes to our economy! And we all want our economy to strengthen don't we? =)

I've really been dying to catch the show since I found the trailer last year, so.. Catch Confessions of a Shopaholic on 26 March!

HOT HOT HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CANNOT STAND HOW DAMN CUTE HE IS!!!!! *sigh* asian guys will always be the cutest to me.. esp with hair like that!!! how not to like?!!! i haven't slept coz i've been watching [boys before flowers] non-stop.. its the korean version of [meteor garden] but everyone looks better here!!! except maybe the one who replaced vanness coz vanness has great hair too!

sigh~

i can just stare at him all day.

old flame

Due to overwhelming requests for me to blog more, here i am!! And the topic for today is.. the past.

I went out with my ex just now. The very first one. They always say that the first one is the one you love the most, but I think for both of us it was just a playful crush kinda thing? But then again, out of all my relationships I loved the girl the most so I think there has to be something very very wrong with me..

Anyway, meeting him actually reminded me of the days when I was young and silly and innocent and carefree.. I was only 16 then and didn't really know what love meant. (I'm not sure if I do now anot but hopefully I do la.) Every little sweet thing would make me incredibly happy and every little wrong thing would make me super upset. Every little hug, kiss or 'i miss you' would mean the world to me.

Now, I never know what to believe anymore. After years of meeting jerks and shedding tears over them, I've learnt to be more wary when it comes to love. Hugs and kisses might mean nothing to someone who does them to many girls. 'i miss you' and 'i love you' are just words said without any meaning. Every step has to be taken with caution and I always have to try to remember not to let my heart's guard down.

Why do I say try? Coz this is just the mildly cynical side of me speaking. Coz deep down I am still just the silly 16 year old girl that I was. Coz I really do believe that one day I will meet the one who hugs me coz he really does miss me and kiss me coz he only loves me.

I'm still waiting for my fairytale ending. ;)

p.s I finally found him on fb!!!! But i can't add him coz it would seem stalker-ish (which i am) but this is my soulmate we're talking about!! Those who know me well should know who.